Thursday, January 29, 2015
164.5 a week times 4.5 weeks equals 740.25 monthly earnings
that equals 8775 a year which will still put me below the poverty line
but if I can work 40 hours a week then I will make 12k a year, if I pay 400 a month in rent then I will b paying 40% of my wages on housing, and "recommend" you never ever pay more then 25% of your monthly income in housing.
But if I am not able to find work beyond the part time job, I will be forced to pay 54% of my income in housing.
I was impressed with both folks who interviewed me. I hope to only have to keep it 3 to 4 months becauase of my deep desire to get out of this deadly city
At the light rail stop I sa 2 teen boys. Even though the one boy was standing next to a garbage can he threw his fast food cup into the river. Not only is it against the law but it brakes my heart.
He went on to break another law in quick succession when he got on the light rail train without purchasing a ticket. That can result in a uge fine. Once he got on the train he told his friend that he has a disease called "clap"
Upon my arrival at the Woodberry light rail stop, I stopped by the Clipper Mill memorial. (the clipper hill studio fire) Numerous items had been left at the memorial earlier today. Flowers, cards and teddy bears. Makes me a little bit sad. Apparently today is one of the deceased firemen's birthday.
This a.m. I contacted food stamp office as well as Salvation Army regarding my need for emergency food stamps and emergency rent money.
The food stamp office said I would need to arrive before 11 a.m. but I knew with all the bus transfers and wait time I would never make it.
I spent the morning perusing the employment section/want ads. Almost Family in Timonium are hiring but it's going to be more then a 2 hour commute one way on busses.
I went anyway because they are calling for a lot of ice and snow over the next week so I knew my situation would only get worse.
They said that as long as they can reach my references they will give me an answer in 3 days on whether or not I'm hired.
To Be Continued
I've sent out about 17 resumes. I took the Income Maintenance Specialist test so that I can work as a food stamp caseworker but I failed miserably.
I met a guy who goes by "Ice Man" who works at the Information Desk of the State Office Building. He asked me out. I also met a guy named mr. almoni he told me to call him Mr. All Money! He lives 3 dorrs down from me on Keswick Road in the Hampden section of Baltimore city and is 98 years old! Remarkably he has lived at this same address since 1918!
After the security guard at the State ofc. building helped me with directions he gave me a hug. I talked to him while waiting on bus 27/he's very intelligent, fascinating great conversationalist.
On Thursday, I went to Raven Bookstore hoping to find some of my friends hanging out there and see if any of them can give me a ride to the Oregon Ridge Nature center but I had no luck.
I am literally jumping out of my skin, I can't concentrate and there is always some sort of obstacle to me finding work. I have just 70 bucks to my name and not a penny in food stamps
Henry from the Raven had me come over to his place so that I would listen to his poetry. He's a nice guy but intense. He dropped me at the Rotunda afterwards where I killed 7 hours! Hard to believe how much time I kill in that place.
Made a friend named "mark" who lives on Chestnut/just as sweet as can be. He took in a family once that is a tempting offer however I'm afraid to ask because I have already been in 2 very dangerous living situations and don't need any more trauma.
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
I did not know that until today I just know that that's the neighborhood I used to live in and I was broken into constantly. The Hells Angels have a very secret presence in this town because I had no idea that they were even here until I just googled them, Wow. I am purposely not going to put Hell's Angels in the search engine of this particular blog posting.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
I never knew she felt that way, today my friend of 14 years gave me a compliment that really made a difference: "Elena one of the reasons why I admire you so much is because you are willing to do absolutely anything that you have to do to make a better life for yourself!"
I've said this in an older blog keep a journal and when people compliment you family friends strangers tell you something that is really meaningful writing in your journal. When you need spiritual food look back and read those journal entries, it can really make a difference :-)
Monday, January 26, 2015
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Saturday, January 24, 2015
I initially assumed that the crimes that I endured between June 1st 2005 and may 30th 2009 we're crimes based on the color of my skin. (I am caucasion in case you didn't notice)
I did not realize but I did fear that I would be followed when I moved to Hampstead in June 2009, when I was accepted into a housing program similar to section 8, another completely blind move.
Had I realized that the perpetrators would do everything in their power to find me no matter where I went, I would not have indicated on my blog that I was in Hampstead.
Between June 1st 2009 and February 1st 2010 with the exception of one crime perpetrated by my Ridgely House neighbor, I lived a relatively safe existence. But sadly between February 1st 2010 and April 7th 2011 I would be the victim of a series of violent crimes that would make my life at Walker mews look like a "permanent day in the park"
So I fled more than 2,000 miles on April 7, 2011 because I knew that if I didn't I would be most likely be murdered.
From April 7th 2011 until April 23rd 2013 I would have 15 to 20 more addresses. When I was back in Maryland and my formal address was in Carroll County Maryland I still informally moved a couple hundred times trying to elude capture and elude getting murdered.
Very strangely (a statistical anomaly) even though I fled more than 2,000 miles I would become the victim of a long series of strange crimes that would last until April 23rd 2013. The crimes were extremely similar to the ones I endured in Maryland although in Arizona nobody actually ever shot at me like they used to do in Maryland.
Its really pretty weird because up until April 23rd 2013 there were a lot of weird crimes scary scary stuff but it still didn't look like I would get murdered like in Maryland.
Now that's not to say that I haven't been the victim of any crimes since April 23rd 2013; because since that date I'm going to say I've been the victim of about 8 crimes.
How can a person go more than 2,000 miles and still be a target, why are the crimes so so similar to the ones that occurred in Maryland.
Did someone or some gang really invest the resources to follow me this far? I don't have the answer and I won't be able to sleep tight until I do...
I cannot tell you the details of the crimes that have occurred since June 1st 2009 because I have to save something for the book and because since the perpetrators are still not in prison it does not feel appropriate for me to put the details of the crimes here on my blog. But it's quite miraculous that I am Alive and I really don't have much of any more fight left in me at all. I do not believe that life should be a fight and I would say that mine has been since the day I was born...
Friday, January 23, 2015
In the late seventies and early eighties I owned this sheet music book, but I didn't get to bring it with me to Arizona. After only 5 minutes of shopping for sheet music tonight I found the same exact book again that I want sone commonl obviously this isn't the exact one that I owned but a duplicate. I would sit in my parents basement and play the piano and sing the songs from this book. The clerk told me that he was just going to go ahead and give it to me for free! That made it even more special
Thursday, January 22, 2015
I was out less than 2 hours tonight and both things I attempted to do we're done wrong I'm only going to talk about one right now, this would qualify as a small thing but what is so maddening is it happens every single time.
Retail restaurants medical care it doesn't matter everything's broken.
This evening I did something I very rarely do I went through a fast food drive-thru and iconic hamburger place in northern Arizona.
I go up to the speaker and I order a mushroom burger and a root beer. The girl calls back through the microphone she states that'll be a hot dog and a root beer right? I said no that's not what I said I said mushroom burger and beer.
Sorry! she said
After about maybe a seven or 10 minute wait and it is well worth it in this case, she States the price: that'll be $9.50 she said
Me-since when is 450 + 250 =9.50!
Sorry ! she said
I'm just wondering when everybody is going to stop being sorry and do something right for a change?
If any of my readers are experiencing society has completely broken on every level please tell me your story!
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
So I'm thinking oh my god these views are spectacular I had no idea such beauty existed in this town. Within seconds is having this thought I see the sign I see this amazing sign that states exactly what it was that I was thinking :-)
I've always loved architecture and I've always enjoyed looking at different houses this is a recent photo I took of a house near me. Just like the rest of America its just rich and poor in my town no middle class. So it is surprising to find that many of the houses near me look very expensive. I think it's 40% of the houses in my town are owned by people that own two houses and live the Snowbird life
I'm afraid there isn't really much of anything normal happening in my life right nowbut if something normal or positive does happen I will certainly let you know about it
I'm temporarily on home health care and they sent a nurse out here yesterday and she's someone who I know from the community and who I met 4 years ago and she's one of the few nurses from the Behavioral Health Center who really really impressed me although she is a standard nurse.
So that was a positive thing and as long as I ok and she will come out every week and check on me. It's great when you have a rapport with someone because then you can talk about all sorts of subjects and things that might be going on in your life therefore it's more meaningful to me than just having her come out and check my vital signs.
Within the first 10 minutes of her coming out here I brought up the final exit book that I have checked out of the library for the third time. That's the right to die movement that I told you about a long time ago.
Just a tiny little tidbit of my life to make you smile.
Sunday, January 18, 2015
My my doctor will in my particular case my nurse practitioner said to me the other day will you look fine to me how can you say that your health is declining rapidly?
I'm in utter disbelief this is a sure sign that I am going to have to find another physician. She's been with me for 21 months and does not consider excruciating pain that never goes away to be a problem? That's a problem exclamation! That is a real problem.
I couldn't fall asleep after taking to rest real pills so I took a seroquel as well. The banging quieted down in my building and I slept nearly 16 hours. I know a lot of people that sleep this much all the time but for me it's unprecedented. So I don't mind at all that I've been awake all night it's Sunday morning I've been I never went to sleep that's okay I hope to get out of the house even though the pain is still unreal just absolutely unreal I mean the only break that you get is when your sleeping.
To in my real life I can't find anybody else who lives every single day in excruciating pain their whole body that is. I found the number of people in chronic pain on Facebook but I can't find too many people who are in excruciating pain
I don't know if it's the line where the fiber my algia I also have some other undiagnosed things going on but as I've told you before I'm not willing to go on indefinitely living like this
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
I have been shot at many times by the same person. However it doesn't appear that he was shooting to kill it appears that he was shooting to terrify, and yes it worked.
It is a very very big part of the reason why I no longer live in the Maryland Department.
I sure AM grateful that Arturo will be in prison for life and I'm really happy that heather is a foster mom now
Saturday, January 3, 2015
A few months ago I spoke to the head of animal control by email and I asked her are these apartments residents really permitted to let their Cats stay Out 24/7?!
She responded that DogSot permitted to be out lose but cats are.
At 3 in the morning you can hear these two cats outside crying or being in heat or whatever the heck it is its very very loud.
My front porch get some nice Daily Sun and the cats are beginning to church on the ledge of myront porch! therefore I got some good photos today but am I right or wrong? Is it not cruel to leave these two cats outside when it gets to be 0 degrees at night? Why are we protecting the dogs and not protecting the cats? Well I'm allergic to cats so I'm not going to let my cats inside when its warm out I leave my front porch open door open and they come inside which I shoot them away. Shoo not shoot!
Please leave your comments regarding whether or not you feel it is inhumane for these people to leave their cats outside in this kind of weather. They do keep a bowl of food and water on their front porch and there is also a cat house but that does not give me much comfort, & I would not describe myself as an overt animal lover like most Americans are
Lucy 2 Snoopy - if you sit there much longer the snow is going to cover you up
it is snowing hard and Snoopy is getting more and more covered up
Lucy to Snoopy - crazy dog
Snoopy's thought bubble - I'm not crazy I'm just withdrawing from the world
I can really relate to this because in the last couple of months between the sleep deprivation and health issues I have withdrawn more and more from the world. Today is my first day out in 4 days
The last time I was inside for 4 days were very traumatic conditions which I probably posted on my blog somewhere. It was in Hampstead Maryland and we were in a record-breaking snowstorm if I had a proper camera I would have photographed the fact that when you open the front door snow was all the way up to my chest. Maintenance did not come today I'll sell and I had no phone service and no television and no way of communicating with the outside world, except when you have a landline you can call 911. I called 911 and I explained my situation and they told me that I was just simply going to have to wait. I was absolutely terrified because I was running out of food and had no idea of when maintenance was going to clear everything. I'm at the point where I just don't really think I can live in a town that has a winter time. I'm really jealous of Dan he lives in his summer home in Florida for the entire winter every year. As you know I'm in acquaintance with many extremely wealthy people who were born into extreme wealth and never had to worry they in their life
The first sentence should say so I'm in my favorite restaurant...
It turns out that the the way they do things is as they get more customers they are required to turn the stereo to a higher volume. If only I knew in advance that they were going to do this I would know when I can and cannot come to the restaurant.
So when I asked themanager if he could turn it down and explain the policy :-(
I can always put earplugs in but I hate putting them damn things in my ears.I wish this Santa Claus would have bought me some Bose noise cancelling headphones! But no such luck
after taking 4 sleeping pills last night I slept from 4 a.m. To 4 p.m.. I don't have a migraine, nausia, or severe stomach pain like most days.
mentally and emotionally I feel pretty good. But it's amazing the restaurant sounds like a tuberculosis ward, everybody is hacking up a Lungthe Revoltingto listen to.
if I could afford to buy a house thenI might start sleeping normally, if I could sleep like a normal person it's possible that my entire view of life would change for the better and I would actually enjoy waking up in the morning.
But as far as apartment living is concerned you already know that it's not going to matter how many times I move unless I could afford to live in a place with sound proofing I am never going to sleep like a normal person.I truly do not mind living in small spaces, but an extra room would help so I could have an office and a place for a computer etc.
So for today I feel okay but God knows what tomorrow will bring...