Sunday, August 30, 2015
Saturday, August 29, 2015
Thursday, August 27, 2015
I attended my third session this semester of a free intermediate Spanish class. I'm not so sure I'm going to go back however because even though the teacher is a natural and really fantastic, there is one student who is so domineering that he basically has a one on one relationship with her for the entire class basically question after question after question as if none of the rest of us are in the room. She essentially is abandoning her entire lesson plan to appease him. It is more than annoying and I certainly don't have any control over it. As you can see I am always trying new things in my community. And for all of the problems my community has and there are many I still must say that this is the best American town I have ever lived in in my life. That is not the same thing as saying that I'm a happy person :-)
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
It's been a problem for years and I just found out that it actually has a name burning mouth syndrome. Need i say more? It's really horrible and you're always thinking about it either you're burning or you're feeling pins and needles. I also have reason to believe that I have Hashimoto's disease which is a thyroid problem. I don't mention the overwhelming majority of issues affecting my quality of life to my doctor because I don't honestly believe that she can do very much to help me but I will mention burning mouth syndrome and I will tell her that I need an MRI of my right shoulder and right arm because the pain is so unbearable and I can't do much at all with my right arm
The last couple of days have been particularly productive. I have gone to two different meetings through meetup.com this seems like a really good way to meet people where the relationships will go deeper than just acquaintanceships.
Additionally, I've waited years to get things in my apartment repaired because no matter how often I would communicate with management I would never hear anything back. I have put up with two and a half years of my washing machine tearing up my clothes and my dryer taking 4 hours to dry one load. Additionally in the maintenance man replaced my venetian blinds today and finally replaced my screen. Both things were a problem for well over a year. This is the first time of maintenance man has come to my home and made a very professional impression on me I made sure to let him know that he impressed me.
I am waiting for my supervisor to determine what my work assignment will be through vocational rehabilitation. I can't tolerate much more of this poverty and always running out of money before the end of the month as well as not having the means to leave town because of not having adequate gas or enough money to spend even one night in a hotel
Friday, August 14, 2015
There's no point in listing all of the symptoms but it's very inhumane.
Thursday, August 13, 2015
It's excruciating pain and it's invisible to everybody else because I don't talk about how my body feels. This is one of the best photos I have ever seen that so perfectly describes what it is like to live in my body from sunup to sundown
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Well it's an epidemic just like Lyme disease. And it's a serious epidemic quite similar to Lyme disease. I lived in a mold infested apartment from 09 to 2011 now I've been in a seriously mold infested apartment for two and a half years. I have nearly all of the symptoms and they are very serious. Dealing migraines, daily nauseous pelvic pain inability to concentrate brain problems on and on and on weakness
But just like with Lyme disease I'm pretty much powerless due to the fact that I'm in poverty. The people in my mold support group on Facebook say that it's pretty much a hopeless case if you live in an apartment and you just need to get out well I can't get out I can't move I have to live where they tell me to live
The people in my mold support group said that it would be foolish to tell the apartment about the problem because still come and bleach it and they'll just make the situation even worse
According to the film most likely you're going to have to leave your environment and leave everything behind. Do you know how many times I've had to leave all of my belongings behind in the course of the last 21 years? That isn't an option anymore
The movie suggest you get a mold literate doctor and all these things that you would need to do require a great deal of money just like with Lyme disease you need a lime literate medical doctor that is not an option to me because these specialists don't take insurance!
So that leaves one thing mentioned in the movie and that is giving up sugar and certain other foods. I am quite frankly not willing to give up sugar
So in my case there really is no hope I'm not going to get better and it ain't going to improve that's just the way it is for nearly one out of two people in this country
According to the movie 1 out of 2 u.s buildings is mold infested! I definitely encourage you to watch the movie on YouTube it is very important, you may be very low yourself and not realize that it's mold
Monday, August 10, 2015
Sunday, August 9, 2015
Unfortunately I missed the majority of the episode but I am in the midst of catching the last 10 minutes of this week's episode of I am Kate
One of Kate's new girlfriends who used to be male is explaining to Caitlin that she is in the pink cloud phase right now where everything revolves around her and the fact that she is now transgendered.
The friend goes on to say you must get on with getting outside of yourself and concentrating on other people also.
This is wonderful advice I begin meeting transgendered people in the mid to late nineties and pretty much every single one that I met only talked about themselves and their sexuality or their new transgenderedness.
It makes it nearly impossible for regular people like myself to feel comfortable with transgendered folks.
I went to katelin new blog and let her know that she is my favorite republican I really like bruce jenner caitlin jenner very much wonderful person really wonderful person!
I was here in 1963 but it wasn't the lab school, I was here in utero when it was called the home for unwed mothers
Thursday, August 6, 2015
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Love this series point of view. Last night they interviewed military but more importantly Sudanese tribes at war. The refugees said they are referred to as "black sacks" the woman joked and said "what do they think they are, white? they are black too!
Despite being in war zones this amazing documentary showed the tribes dancing and sing and drum all day and all night unless they are running from the planes dropping bombs....................
please search for
Sudanese refugees girls music
I hope you can find it, the outfits so gorgeous, the music and dance will bring tears to your eyes
Saturday I had an interview at the brand new Montessori school which still looks like a warehouse
sunday the front page of the newspaper said "Montessori may not meet their goal date to move into the new building"
Monday when I was at the pay phone in the library there were about 150 books next to the pay phone but the book that was left at the phone was entitled " a Montessori education!"
NEED I SAY MORE?!
The bad news is really minor and can be easily corrected. For some reason my site meter is no longer on my blog but since it had been up for so long I always know my approximate readership
Now that I have a smartphone I can post more often and where each post got about seven hits now each post gets anywhere from 10 260 hits I can easily well nothing's easy in my life, but I can relatively easily find someone to put sitemeter backup for me again because I really do enjoy tracking my readership it creates a certain motivation to keep on writing
Sometimes I look back at the posts in a little bit embarrassed that I shared so much but when you get right down to it the more open I am I think the more my numbers increase
Monday, August 3, 2015
just 2 avoid being shut off I paid double what I agreed to pay, and they shut me off 2 days ago!
don't know how to get onto facebook on these public computers, but even worse I had to spend another 30 on a land line and they can't get me hooked up for another 8 days.
what the hell kind of life is this. nobody's life should be "getting cluster fucked every 5 minutes by society!"
"Lauren" emailed me a year ago to say that I'm 2 angry. I wrote in my journal "I can assure u it isn't anger it's RAGE!"
I'm alive but I have no way of making outgoing calls or texts for I don't know how long.