Someone on quora asked:
Would u play 1 round of Russian Roulette for 5 million dollars?
My response: yes.
That's the name of the show I'm watching.
I'm pleased to say that's one of the few things I have not had to survive! although I have seen tornadoes I have never been so close as to incur any sort of major injury or loss.
As I watch Weather Channel I'm thinking about how prior to deciding where in the United States to live over the course of the last 22 years I have always strongly considered climate.
predominantly violent . While onecan never wholly guarantee that they won't be the victim of this or that you can certainly gauge likelihood.
from mudslides to floods , tornadoes to earthquakes there are places in the nation where you're not nearly as likely to become a vic. But when thinking about storm sandy, who knew?!
obviously with climate change there are fewer and fewer places to run in the world
It feels like someone is hammering on the back of my hand while someone else is stabbing the back of my hand with knives while concurrently all limbs are burning and stung with bees.
Not to mention the spine pain thats had me mostly bedridden since prepping for the carpet cleaning guy who was a no show on Thursday!
Renting very small office in somones house. Can't bring anything I own with me.
I had lived for 2 weeks as f/t liv in nanny. They knew in advance Id b in ocean city for a few days with my friend, I decided to return early.
My boss went all through my personal belongings must hav read my journals, discovered I was politically librral. I had no car, and theres no public transit in Shadyside, Md. She fired me instantly upon my return from o.c. (It was in written contract that nobody in their fam. Smokes indoors. They broke contract, I complained, as Im severely allergic.
They bought me a one way ticket to Baltimore city at night and I Had no clue where to go. ID DO A night here a night there.
By about 8/6 Carolone and her hubby Shawn let me rent a small very dirty office. They didnt move anything out for me, I "slept" on the floor of the office.
Here is my journal entry
"Where do I start, what approach should I take? It's not too late.
Baltimore is driving me to drink!
I finally slept normally last night I was the only one home.
I was I living room (after dark) when a rock, which I thought was a bullet, came through the window.
I screamed and instinctively dropped flat to the floor (cuz I live in a u.s. war zone)
I crawled to the landline, not unlike a snake. I called 911. I just want some peace, waitin on the police.
They say "We can't do nuttin, aint no crime been proven. (They made fun of me for thinking it was a bullet)
There were no witnesses they reiterated.
No mo no mo
Just leave me alone!
I aint hurtin noone
Just chillin here at "home!"
If I had a choice between a life of homelessness and poverty or getting murdered painlessly I would have rather been shot in the back and killed in February 1994 then to have had to live this kind of life. You know I am honest to a fault
Most of the people that I meet have low to extremely low IQs.
But it's an even more common occurrence in people from one if three ethnic groups that I wont name, where the bulk are ether severely developmentally disabled or just dumb as a doorknob.
At the time that they were working on debunking racism stereotypes they determined that size of brain is identical the brains looks identical even though the ethnic groups were different;then why can't I have a conversation with anyone that it is normal. I had a more enjoyable interaction with my 7 year old friend walking home from the bus today can I do with most people. Because Levi is a really quick learner and he loves to learn.
Here in the privacy of my own home I can Google whatever I want to Google and I can type in whatever ethnic group I want to type in by asking the Google search engine particular questions! I want to find out whether other Americans are having similar experiences as me, or, am I exaggerating? I learned that ny perceptions are sadly and strikingly real.
I told the bus driver today that I didn't have my ID because it was temporarily missing in my apt. She charged me doubleand added on a lecture: You really need to have it with you all the time!
I just got through telling you it's MISSING its LOST!
I have to repeat myself over and over and over again with everybody! As you can see there are some things that are going to follow me no matter where in this country I live .
They don't seem to comprehend even the tiniest of questions. A few years back I noticed that on days that I didn't have my watch if I asked couple of people throughout the day what time it was they would invariably give me the wrong time
I was trying to exchange an item for another item in a different department at Safeway. I had to repeat the same story/phrase six different times !before the Safeway employee comprehended that I don't want to exchange it for the same exact item!
I'm wondering to myself why does he think I would exchange it for the same exact thing that doesn't make any sense!
I think I told you this story before but I was calling a clinic a local Clinic run by one of the ethnic groups that I mentioned earlier.
I called on the phone and asked if John Smith still works there the receptionist replied there's no John Smith here but would you like to speak to Jon Jones ???!
I was speaking with my very dear friend Carol in Las Vegas and the conversation gave me a sense of hope that I probably haven't had it about 12 years, time will tell on whether or not I can hang onto this Outlook but it is looking like I just might be able to
When you visit me this is one of the places that I will be sure to take you I'll walk you all through the very colorful downtown community where you will see a cross-section of homeless, tourists, permanent and temporary residents of Flagstaff and NAU college students as well as quite a number of athletes specifically Olympian athlete who come here to train.
August is one if the best months to come, little humidity, cool temps and a stunning look at ponderosa pines with enormously tall dense fields if sunflowers.
Rerun. I still can especially relate to this prisoner who was asked what groups does he run with he thought to himself I would run with teachers and Librarians but there aren't any here you reach down deep and you find a strength that you didn't know you had he goes on to say. I can especially relate to this man because poverty and being forced to live in subsidized housing with violence multiple times a day is exactly like being on a long prison sentence
I just realized today that I literally have enough material in my journals to fill a whole book on my vast experiences with reverse racism.
Then, seconds later I realized my "blood rellie" published a book with racism as his central theme!
I was just rereading these letters that I wrote to man that I was either friends with or dating. And I'm really shocked at how I thought about the world immediately before becoming an atheist.
These are letters that I never sent to these guys but I sure am glad that I have this to look back on. I did not believe in premarital sex and also apparently I wanted to take my deaf friend Mike 2 the Ernest Angley service to get his hearing back to get healed!
To say that I have changed is a huge understatement! I've been an Atheist for nearly thirty years now...
Home robbed and looted nearly daily until I fell homeless again on 8/15/2012.
T this August 2012 episode of homelessness that lasted for months turned out to be the best thing in the long run because it created a Avenue for me to get into my very first experience with safe subsidized housing April 2013 on the south side of Flagstaff
Their experiences closely resemble my experiences over the last twenty three years but but my experiences with Section 8 housing in such a violent part of America Baltimore City Maryland
I have not recorded the most vicious of my experiences on this blog but I have recorded them in my written journals which I hope to be turned into a movie after I die
This is the oldest journal and everything else has been destroyed or stolen. I didn't even realize I was making these lists and pro and con list all the way back then!
And with every passing week or two I add another writer on the list of ancestors and family members! And years later I learned my bio dad was at umcp also. this would be one of many so-called coincidences between myself and my biological family
How would you like it if your mouth, palate tongue and throat feel like they are on fire all of your waking hours?
Have had for 10plus years. Who needs a formal diagnosis you know it when you have it it's called burning mouth syndrome and even drinking cold drinks doesn't help even eating cold yogurt doesn't help there's a tiny bit of relief while you're sucking on ice chips but beyond that it's just they're all the time along with a horrible horrible taste in my mouth that never goes away
Now that I'm on Facebook I realize that there are millions and millions of Americans like me with invisible disability that you would never know they were seriously ill unless they told you!
The Opening Ceremonies were absolutely amazing !
I don't think I've ever seen Opening Ceremonies before. the international parade was incredulous
I have love parades since I was a little girl (participated in a handful)
but I also love diversity !
the Real kind of diversity that is. When the U.S. says something is diverse, its code for: "there were 2 African Americans there!
it was a real treat but it the parade was also really really long !
I know it's not politically correct to follow the Olympic Games .
I like what Obama had to say about the Olympics ....if it's good enough for him it's good enough for me!
The reason I now disclose so much on blog is because the very circumstances I planned on disclosing in my a/b
Were the exact circumstances that made a/b impossible
There is a long list of other ways that r avenues for 22 years of journals to live on thru bio, film and more