Monday, January 30, 2017
Friday, January 27, 2017
The car's been vandalized regularly ever since I got it two and a half years ago they like to see the car they like to take a hammer and make holes in the frame they like to destroy my bumper stickers in fact I just replaced my bumper stickers and then they keep coming back trying to tear my Bernie sticker into shreds
I know this is got to be something personal because they're also defacing stickers that have nothing to do with politics
Thursday, January 26, 2017
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
Not safe to walk to bus, not necessarily safe to drive car, but if I stay immobile much longer I increase risk of blood clots.
Must attempt to get to a grocery store.
Flagstaff expecting up to 3 inches snow today.
Wont climb above 35 Fahrenheit for another week.
Talking about weather ceases to be small talk when it causes you to be under house arrest for such long periods!
Monday, January 23, 2017
Sunday, January 22, 2017
In march 97 I was working downtown at deap. My supervisor (highest up) gave me a bouquet of flowers and said "keep up the good work"
Next day, a woman with a lower position, fired me by leaving a message on my voicemail.
Nearly the same scenario happened at my live in 100 hr week position working at home for disabled.
I was cheated out of 3k!
The org. Has rep. of being very unethical. (Sooo many of those)
These symptoms commonly render my hands and arms useless.
I have to hold ice packs in the hopes of reducing burning.
I also have Raynauds.
The girls in my lyme disease Facebook groups seem to all be independently wealthy either themselves or their extended families because they are spending hundreds of thousands of dollars on Lyme literate medical doctors.
I don't have the means to do any of that nor do I have to desire to do any of that I have given up on ever having a normal life or on getting better so what's the point in running from specialist to specialist even if I did have the money
Saturday, January 21, 2017
I came over to YouTube looking to watch today's pussy Kratts protest on the mall when I got one of those things that is called recommended for you videos
The video was called Hotel Walmart before I click the start button my mind flashed over to the Walmart that is right up the road from me in Flagstaff, this is where I first learned about the phenomenon of living in the Walmart parking lot
Imagine my shock when I started the video and found out the story is being told at that very Walmart that is 2.7 miles away from where I live !
I was also interviewed a month after my arrival to flagstaff, just google "rock candy mountain"
Friday, January 20, 2017
Thursday, January 19, 2017
GWhichever way you look, you hear the same thing.
Watch your calories, reduce your calories.
But in the world I live in, no matter how hard we try, we can't get enough calories.
Demand at soup kitchens and food pantries is so high, the demand cant be met!
Youd b amazed at the number of Americans who don't have the money to eat healthful foods or to eat regularly.
Stay away. Mold infested and filled with cooking odors and second hand smoke.
I told them about the daily break ins, looting, death threats/they told me I was destroy ing my apt., staging the scene!
Manager was petty, lying bitch and purposely covered mold with paint.
The break ins started 3/1/2010 and continued until I was forced to flee on 4/7/2011.
I was forced to abandon my gorgeous (badly vandalized) emerald green buick.
Ahh, the colors! Remember when she comes onto set with a pregnancy dress that is perfectly patterned after the wallpaper in this scene?!
And better yet, the parallel love stories. Looks like women in the early sixties were willing to marry the first good looking man who looked their way!
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
I confirmed today after some journals were mailed to me, that despite some drs. Not believing me, I was indeed diagnosed with non epileptic seizures around 2009 in Maryland.
I do still have seizures that ive never mentioned to the Arizona drs.
Homelessness means I've lost virtually every material thing I ever owned.
Eventually, I came to terms with it and decided: "you still have your story"
Nothing else matters but to make sure it lives on even after I'm gone. That's been my obsession for 17 years.
Monday, January 16, 2017
Sunday, January 15, 2017
Roi wants to learn how his family dealt with racism. Like me, weboth have very abusive fathers due likely to their ptsd from war. (In my case, adoptive father)
My birthmother would be very surprised at how much time I spend researching my blood family.
Friday, January 13, 2017
I don't normally watch the view but im glad I saw it today because Diane Sawyer doing another special tonight on the poor in America.
10pm eastern on abc.
I think its called 20/20. I normally watch these documentaries about poor and homeless on YouTube.
Thursday, January 12, 2017
I can choose to be so bitter regarding the life I've had; as to never trust anybody, shut off my heart completely or I can open my heart just a sliver let the blessings in.
A man in my local fb group that has 30k people; offered to diagnose my car problem at no cost.
He came here I gave him my car key, he did a partial dx. And is coming back again at no cost.
I'm just saying that, based on the life I've had I can choose to believe he just wants to steal cars, no human can b trusted.
Or I.e. love is only for the slender, healthy, wealthy and beautiful.
Or, I can choose to open my heaRt; just a sliver!
After all, even Baltimore has kind people somewhere!
(Since ive come to flag, I estimate ive given out my phone number about 600 times to people I feel a special connection with or to people I volunteer for/homeless, etc.)
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
Twin sisters reunited after 10 years. Yes thats the mushy, sweet part.
The ugly part is that the ugly adoption industry have put them in separate adoptive families, and they will never get to live together until they are at least 18.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
Ever notice how many t.v.shows and movies revolve around landlines and pay phones?
Its remarkable that writers for 21st century tv shows and movies can think up new material at all!Cell phones simply dont cut it in this regard!
Monday, January 9, 2017
I recently found my biological sisters fb page and scrolled through pictures of her and my birthmother through the ages.
Realization? My sister and I could pass as twins.
Second. There is an extremely strong chance my sister and I were in the same classroom for 1983/1984 freshman English 101 at Towson University!
Sunday, January 8, 2017
So I never did find what I was looking for but I broke down and started reading my ancestors book of genealogy and before I knew it it started mentioning Charles Mary Laura Ingalls in Wisconsin!!!
I don't know exactly what all of this means yet but it's awesome hobby to engulf oneself in
Very surprising, sad, insiteful to learn more about the conditions on the native Indian reservations.
What Riley learned about extreme abuse/neglect stats. regarding children in Native families is exactly what I observe EVERY SINGLE DAY I leave the house. (Here in flagstaff)
The severe muscle, spine pain and more means I only sleep in fragments of a few minutes.
Its unbearable desperate pain and every night you wonderful how much more you can take.
As I said before, I'm paralyzed for hours. Cant change positions, get extra blanket, and it takes me hours before I can get to bathroom.
This started in the eighties but got much worse after I incurred lyme disease.
I should let the experts and scientists see my 23 years 2wirth of journals that clearly back up their findings.
There is much depth to this study please click on link!
Saturday, January 7, 2017
I'm still being cyber stalked I just got yet another notification that this time someone in Canada tried to break into my email This time it's a defunct email but the one they tried to break into three months ago was not defunct.
The cyberstalking is not as serious as it was a couple of years ago but it's still scary!
When (many) people tell me (as example) that they could never live in such a cold climate like I do, I think
You could if you had to
Awww you poor thing, having to take your millions to buy multiple homes so you can climate hop.!
You poor thing who HAD to spend a million out of pocket in 2016 chasing a cure for your disease!
(Remember hall and oates? " you're a rich girl and it's going too far you know it don't matter anymore you can rely on the old man's money you can rely on the old man's money it's a bitch girl!")
From the war on poverty to war on crime.
Excellent panel! Was mentioned how its mostly children of color who get thrown out of nursery school.
I recall the last preschool I worked in, I dreaded going because my 5 y.o. black male student was regularly injuring the other kids.
The director refused to expel him.
But when it happened in Baltimore in 83 in my classroom, sadly it was determined that the only way to keep the daycare center safe was to expel the boy.
No question those boys learned violence from their parents, environment.
Book tv rocks
Thursday, January 5, 2017
I don't talk about my lyme disease I don't talk about morgellon or Hashimoto with the doctors there's nothing that they can do and I don't want them to put me on any more pills
But this is a symptom of had for many years my throat deep down into my throat hurts when I talk it's on fire pins and needles my tongue is on fire pins and needles my throat G everything is on fire pins and needles, constant throbbing.
Thank goodness for the internet that is a big reason why I know what's going on with my body
Never goes away.
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
Please dont ask me how I am if you're going to respond with:
"It could always be worse"
Have you ever had to go to the township trustee to beg for them to help you buy winter boots? (Just to have them turn you down?!)
Don't tell me about someone else possibly being worse off! It's very naive and condescending!
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
Monday, January 2, 2017
Sunday, January 1, 2017
this is a spectacular documentary!
they had their first hit when I was in kindergarten they literally have been the soundtrack of my entire life.
If you woke up each morning with my symptoms, (but are very wealthy) you'd b ABSOLUTELY terrified, you'd regularly go to the e.r., you d run from specialist to specialist
And you'd spend hundreds of thousands of dollars annually, desperate for a cure and desperate for a normal life.
" it's about time somebody stands up for himself nobody else is going to protect us on the subway."
(Reference to man that shot 4 teens on a Manhattan subway train)