"The only updates i have"

I know this is far more boring then when I was blogging about violent crime and such!  I am just beginning to feel safe.  Safe enough that I have been decorating even though I have no plans to stay in the apt. long term.  Bought some pretty tablecloths and vases and today I bought a plant that is a mix of many gorgeous flowers.  Hoping to keep it alive. 

I'm home a lot and I love lots of color.  beginning of may I will buy some fresh flowers too.

So, I'm only getting out every other day.  I never know what the day will bring.  i.e. yesterday I woke up naucious again with a very severe headache.  Your too sick to sleep and your too sick to stay awake it really feels like torture.  I did two doses of the migraine medicine but it didn't kick in til evening.  I don't do much in the way of sweets I have lost a lot of weight.

Got in with the g.i. doc and asked him if we can do the colonoscopy/endoscopy as an inpatient due to me not knowing who to ask to stay with me all day.  They won't do it unless you have someone babysit you all day.  The doc said "there is absolutely nothing I can do to help you until you figure out how to get these tests"

Despite his incompetent support staff he is not.  He is very compassionate, I've met him one time before and he has great bedside manner.

I'm also going to go to an orthopedist to try to find the source of:

severe knee pain
severe right shoulder and arm pain
severe tailbone pain

The pain meds are not adequate enough for me to be able to leave the house for more then 4 hours in a day.  As I've said before I will not make a life long commitment to life indefinitely if it is my fate to live each day all day in excruciating pain.

"Weak stomach, don't read this"

Very very weak today.  But it's a vicious cycle because the more you lay around the more you begin to develop other health issues (which I am)

So every day for the last 10 days or so I have awoken with a headache so severe that I could not leave the house until the imitrex did it's work. However, tues a.m. headache was so severe that the meds didn't work and I was viciously nauseous all day with about 8 hours of vomiting.

I think it's fair to say that I'm so sick that it makes it nearly impossible to run around to doctors.

My heater hasn't been working right and I have been using the oven to heat the house as long as I am awake.

I read yesterday that the American lung assoc. warns against it due to possible carbon monoxide poisoning.  when they mentioned nausea vomiting and headaches, I figure I better rush to wal mart to buy yet another delonghi heater rated the safest space heater on the market, and stop using the oven no matter how cold the apt. gets.

So, there you go.