"Weak stomach? don't read this"

So the deal is that I'm getting migraines nearly every a.m.  Insurance only allows 9 pills a month, and sometimes it takes 2 pills to knock out the migraine.

So, I had the one on fri a.m.  that came back fri. night.  I ate for the last time at the mission.  I tried to sleep off the fri. headache which did not work.  It turned into a skull crusher.  The kind where you can't talk in person, on the phone, or even watch t.v.  all u can do is just suffer.

I vomited for 10 hours. And decided to fast.  Easy to do since I had run out of money and there is no food in house.  I've been very weak since, only able to leave for 2 hours yesterday. 

Although it has subsided it has not completely gone away.  Someone has started smoking in my bldg. (lease violation) and the smoke is coming into my place which might be why there are more headaches.  Still very weak.  Still gotta say that this is NOT AN ACCEPTABLE QUALITY OF LIFE.

The mmj card has still not arrived but I know that it will someday.

"Every breath you take/every step you take"

That is the song that is in my head today.  The weakness and fatigue are debilitating, i am required to do a lot of walking.  I am only sleeping a few minutes a night.  My roomate is smoking indoors, leaving oven on and burning substances in her room.  I can not breathe, every breath is a struggle.

Even in apts where one is not allowed to smoke, i can't find anyone to enforce it.  I'm going to look for the song on you tube and post it.

My n.p. back in Maryland said that the only answer to the weakness is to use a cane.  Alot of good that is going to do when all the roads and sidewalks are covered with ice.  Plus i don't like the stigma.