MY MIND IS BLOWN/SYNCHRONICITY

I came over to YouTube looking to watch today's pussy Kratts protest on the mall when I got one of those things that is called recommended for you videos

The video was called Hotel Walmart before I click the start button my mind  flashed over to the Walmart that is right up the road from me in Flagstaff, this is where I first learned about the phenomenon of living in the Walmart parking lot

Imagine my shock when I started the video and found out the story is being told at that very Walmart that is 2.7 miles away from where I live !

I was also interviewed a month after my arrival to flagstaff, just google "rock candy mountain"

https://youtu.be/h1AWLo_fK1U

1 year ago o today

I wish I could tell you things as they are happening, but sadly I cannot because the stalking began in June 2005. I feared filling in the details on the blog and I still fear it, because I feared that if I put all the details up here that it would increase the chances that I would be murdered.

That being said I could not put up here right away about having a car. My stalker destroyed my last car not only externally but the internal workings and even got inside my automobile and cut everything up with a nice and would purposely vomit on the seats. I could go on and on and on, that's exactly what I plan to do once I get featured on Dateline or Investigation Discovery true crime channel.

Shockingly even though I was forced to flee Maryland I still endured many serious and on-going crimes here in Arizona all the way through to April 2013. Much to my shock and surprise even in the year that I've had the car someone's been coming back repeatedly to vandalize it. This time the person has not been able to get inside the vehicle and has not done things like cut the brakes which is the sorts of things that he did when I lived in Maryland.

I can't say that having a car has made me happier but you have watch me document for 8 years about how when I was on public transportation I was spending up to seven hours a day commuting. I live in a small town and you very much need a car here, life is dreadfully difficult without an automobile here so like any town in America having an automobile has given me freedom and choices. & I no longer have to waste up to 50 hours a week commuting!

Currently because of the monsoon rains it has affected my battery so I can't use the car today, I'm very very lucky because I ended up drifting in the parking lot today rather than getting stranded out on a major road right in the middle of the hail and rain. Tomorrow I'll have to figure out how to get the vehicle over to the servicing place, thank goodness I won't have to take money out of my own pocket exactly for the repair because I paid for a 2 year warranty, bumper to bumper.

"ACCESS DENIED"/HEALTH CARE IN AMERICA"

EXCERPTS FROM OLDER JOURNALS

12/25/95

I'm real sick, my cough has worsened. Deana really wants me to come over for Christmas. (A long lived friendship that ended in 96)  Tom gives me a ride.    But after I got there I started sneezing real bad and feeling really cold. Later that night after I got home, I started to develop flu symptoms. I was hot and cold the whole night. Despite my illness, I had a good time playing Therapy with Deana and Laura and the kids.

1/1/96

The last week of 95 was sheer hell because I've been so sick. I started coughing about last Saturday or Sunday after the sinus/bronchial infection (caused in part by my severe allergy to my landlord's 2 dogs) got more severe and this morning I woke up with laryngitis. I was so crippled up with back pain that I couldn't walk. That had alot to do with the fact that this house is so damn cold. My muscles get tightened up and then I end up in pain. (I would get my Fibromyalgia diagnosis in 97)

I got so weak that I couldn't stand for more than 5 minutes.

1/2/96

Migraine with vomiting. The headaches are precipitated by alot of coughing. Today I didn't get out of bed until 1 or 1:30 in the afternoon. Was up vomiting until around 1 a.m. Crushing fatigue, need lots of sleep, but my breathing is so obstructed that it makes sleep impossible.

Tried to find a sliding scale clinic today to help me with my bronchial problems. I called Ask A Nurse and they could only find one. I called it and it was a private doctor. I got an answering machine. The other doctor was in the Rotunda mall. I talked to the woman in billing who was very curt with me. As soon as she quoted the price of $150.00 she hung up on me instead of asking me if I want an appointment! SHE JUST HUNG UP ON ME!

When I reached the Wyman park Clinic by phone, they said they wouldn't see me at all because I have no income. I said that I would be able to pay something but they wouldn't quote me a fee over the phone. I said, o.k. I'll try your East and West Baltimore sites. She said they MIGHT work with me.

Oh yeah, there's a clinic on Reisterstown Road. Maybe if I got out there Mike (my birthmother's husband) will take me back (but that's only if my birthmother isn't home, because she'd never approve of him helping me with a ride)

I called the MTA and the dispatcher started yelling at me. (which is common) She told me that I was cutting her off, when I was simply trying to get her to slow down so I could write down the instructions on how to get to a chiropractor by bus.

I left the house at 3 p.m.  Three buses (all legally required to stop and pick me have passed me by.  I heard that whites don't always get picked up) Finally, at 3:45, I get tired of standing in the cold rain. I decide to go on foot in Hampden to try to find a chiropractor. There was one, but it was closed. So I went into an internist's office and asked about their fees. She said $70 for the first visit. She offered no other info.

After I sat down for a few minutes, and asked her if I could use the phone, she told me about the Union Memorial Clinic.

At 5:20, I find a chiropractor. The entire appt. only took about 20 minutes. None of these chiropractors/doctors want to take the time to get to know you, but other than that he was good. I liked getting hot massage from the electrodes. Adjustments are somewhat painful but I do believe in chiropractic care.