1 year ago o today

I wish I could tell you things as they are happening, but sadly I cannot because the stalking began in June 2005. I feared filling in the details on the blog and I still fear it, because I feared that if I put all the details up here that it would increase the chances that I would be murdered.

That being said I could not put up here right away about having a car. My stalker destroyed my last car not only externally but the internal workings and even got inside my automobile and cut everything up with a nice and would purposely vomit on the seats. I could go on and on and on, that's exactly what I plan to do once I get featured on Dateline or Investigation Discovery true crime channel.

Shockingly even though I was forced to flee Maryland I still endured many serious and on-going crimes here in Arizona all the way through to April 2013. Much to my shock and surprise even in the year that I've had the car someone's been coming back repeatedly to vandalize it. This time the person has not been able to get inside the vehicle and has not done things like cut the brakes which is the sorts of things that he did when I lived in Maryland.

I can't say that having a car has made me happier but you have watch me document for 8 years about how when I was on public transportation I was spending up to seven hours a day commuting. I live in a small town and you very much need a car here, life is dreadfully difficult without an automobile here so like any town in America having an automobile has given me freedom and choices. & I no longer have to waste up to 50 hours a week commuting!

Currently because of the monsoon rains it has affected my battery so I can't use the car today, I'm very very lucky because I ended up drifting in the parking lot today rather than getting stranded out on a major road right in the middle of the hail and rain. Tomorrow I'll have to figure out how to get the vehicle over to the servicing place, thank goodness I won't have to take money out of my own pocket exactly for the repair because I paid for a 2 year warranty, bumper to bumper.

You would be shocked

You would be shocked at all of the diagnoses I have received since turning 30. You would also be shocked at all of the different symptoms I have from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to bed at night.

But generally speaking the pain is so severe and unbearable that even if I slept 6 hours and feel that that was an adequate amount of sleep I usually will go back to sleep because I cannot bear how much pain I'm in. In my real life I don't know anybody at all who lives with excruciating pain all day long everyday. But I know thousandswomen who are living this way through my Facebook support groups. Some of these women are extremely surprised and impressed that I am walking a minimum of 8 miles every week even while being in severe pain.

I would like to figure out whether or not this telephone has a decent audio recorder and since I live alone and nobody knows what I'm going through I would like to speak into the audio throughout the day and then transcribe it and put it on the blog.

If I had the equipment and I knew how to do it and I had a personal computer I would put a video up on youtube about what I'm living with and what life is really like. I have seen some videos like that but I haven't seen any yet describing the long list of symptoms that I have.

Testing 123

I just made a post with my new phone but for some reason it will not publish its listed as draft, Here I am trying again

The results from the core biopsy or in

I was in the emergency room with chest pain in the beginning of October. They did an MRI with contrast dye or was it a cat scan with contrast dye and the results were worrisome to them. They found a mass in my right breast. They advised me to go for a mammogram. The mammogram indicated abnormalities in the left and right breast.

The first attempt to the core biopsy was unsuccessful they couldn't even touch me I was in so much pain. Administrative things went wrong and I ended up waiting a number of months for another core biopsy. This one was under general anesthesia.

So after an eight month wait I am pleased to announce that I have absolutely no cancer in either breast! I assume the reason for the abnormal mammograms was because of my debilitating Lee painful severe fibrocystic breast disease.

On the right breast and bruised on the left breast I feel like I'm being knifed in my ribs. And then sometimes it's just really sore. The girls in my facebook support group told me to use ice and were there certain types of oils you can use. Some of the girls have been suffering for more than 6 months since their core biopsy. I'm not going to worry I'm just going to take it one day at a time

My very bad experiences with Verizon

I've only had this phone this smartphone for 8 months.

Verizon more than tripled the amount that I owe each month. it's very difficult for me to comprehend how the bills could be so high. They claim each month that I keep using more data than I am permitted on the Internet. I thought that increasing my data to the unlimited plan would do the trick but they still keep sending me bills that I can't even comprehend, with all sorts of thumb late fees and like I said overage fees taxes.

So last month they just shut me off. I make numerous phone calls to the Verizon clerks asking them what can I do to prevent being shut off, no matter how many calls I make it's like I'm wasting my time. I've gone from an average of $60 a month to $200 a month. Now there's no question about it if I could afford a computer, I would have to get rid of my smartphone, but I can't buy a computer because I don't have decent enough credit to qualify for a credit card.

With the so-called average and late fees I think my bill is now about 350 or more. my income is still 750 a month and I have a lot less money for food now.

I've been told that I can switch from Verizon to another provider now I can certainly try that. As far as collectors Verizon collectors I don't need to worry too much about that because it's rare for a business to sue a person whose only income is disability.

I somebody sent me a link to Verizon complaint to consumer affairs I believe it was. And there were probably hundreds and hundreds of complaints. I read and I read and I read and there was nothing but problems with Verizon by consumers.

Insight and forced to give up a smartphone then I have to give up Facebookblogging at home a fantastic camera and basic internet for all the researching that I do each day.

In the next 48 hours I will transfer whatever data I can also do this phone onto a flash drive, I think that's the next step since I'm not clear as to whether I have to actually give up this phone or not or simply give up the provider. It's most certainly not simple when you've gotten used to Internet. Internet has raised the quality of life, albeit not to wear my quality of life is acceptable but it has raced it nonetheless specially having a having it at home

Garcinia cambogia

For the last month or two everywhere I turn I hear about Garcinia cambogia. They showed pictures of June Shannon apparently she lost about 100 pounds. But she is also diabetic and she should not have been taking this supplement with her diabetes medications.

I had heard nothing but good things and I wondered well its just really a miracle pill?

So I looked for other research on the internet today and I am to the house at Web MD.

The bottom line is if you're considering Garcinia cambogia you might as well just save your money and spend it on healthier foods or the gym, Garcinia cambogia can cause you a lot of problems.

Please check out the article before you spend your money

Core biopsy on both breasts under general anesthesia

I had the procedure on Thursday morning and everything that could go wrong did go wrong except the actual surgery. When I got to the hospital they told me that they may not go through with the surgery because I don't have anyone to stay with me in my home.

I assumed that my ride was going to stay with me in the hospital and also stay with me at my house but that turned out to not be the case.

That basically meant that I had to fight with for staff people at the hospital. I told them if they refuse to do the surgery then I'm not coming back ever.

The bottom line is that they did it but they only did it because they were under the impression that I could come up with someone to stay with me. I easily made six contacts with Home Health Care letting them know that I would need them the bottom line is that they never came through for me.

The surgery itself was done under general anesthesia so there was no pain, but the blood pressure cuff always makes me scream out and they had to check me every 7 minutes. It was depressing to be in the hospital by myself. I was released from surgery at 10:30 a.m. but my ride didn't come till 1215 in the afternoon.

It turned out that the discharge paperwork stated that one of the reasons why you need someone to stay with you is because you should not be operating any sort of appliances. I actually nearly burned the apartment down put water on for coffee and forgot all about it, then read that this is one of the reasons why they don't want you to be alone.

I said to the hospital staff so the results won't be in until Tuesday is that correct. This is my intuition nobody told me this but this is my intuition. The hospital told me oh no you'll know by Monday. When I actually called my primary care doctor on Monday late afternoon they stated that I was correct that they don't know anything... Quite frankly I'm not worried at all about cancer its other things that have me non functional but it's not the cancer or potential cancer