"Calling the Police was a waste of time"

I showed him the item that was placed next to my bed and he said he didn't know what it was. I told him what was missing and he started on this merry go round of intimidation tactics.

"Ms. Snyder, why would anyone, pop your air mattress, or steal food, or steal underwear that's just not logical"

me-I'm not going to try to psychoanalye these people, and I'm not going to pretend to understand the way they think. all i can say is that your department told me to call if i had any more concerns, which is what i just did.

(Why isn't anybody looking at the fact that I waited 10 days to call, and I'm calling non emergency which shows that i'm not hysterical , i'm pretty clear thinking, and i'm not going to call unless i am really worried) these are the same patterns as the criminals followed at my last place.

ms. snyder "I said, don't you see it makes no sense. do you understand"

me-I don't see it your way

cop-"Cut it with the attitude. I'm not talking to you with attitude, and i expect you to show me respect. Do you see what i am trying to explain to you? Nobody breaks into people's homes to steal their food or pop their air mattress.

cop-"Look, I have a degree in psychology"

(and i have a degree in social work, but there isn't much point in saying that now is there)

So i still feel scared and he's treating me like i'm an idiot just like they did back in the city.

"Well, how did they get in?" he insisted.

I don't know, a bump key? (I probably had these conversations with cops, mayors, chief of police, t.v., newspapers 10,000 times in the 4 years I was at La Pew. Bottom line, I don't know what goes thru a criminal's mind all i cared about at La Pew was getting out, not sticking around and hoping i didn't get murdered or raped.



cop-I can assure you, nobody else in your complex has been bothered and i can assure you nobody followed you out here from baltimore city..........................

If I disagreed with him or didn't say anything he would demand that I agree with him and see it his way. All i can say is, if i have to make another call to the police district, I won't ask for that same officer.............................

The cop who took last summers report on the fireworks complaints (fireworks every night from june thru october) made me give my email address!

Most of my experiences with the cops out here have been pretty good; this is only my 2nd bad one. But it certainly wasn't a very comforting consensus.

I wasn't the only person at la pew who regularly had their food stolen............He asked me any other items. I said that well, when they take your underwear and dishes you don't notice it right away you notice it later.

He made a face that seemed to say, why would anyone take underwear or dishes? but at La Pew-every single thing I owned but journals and books were freely taken from me............................even all of the silverware and most dishes and cookware.

Looks like I'm on my own as usual..................

(I doubt this is the most coherent piece I've ever written, but I'm pretty flustered which makes it tuf to write the best pieces)

"Preparing to call the police"

So, I'm cleaning and organizing and studying everything. What's missing, what's out of place. My photo album has been moved from one end of the apt. to the other and it's on the floor by the door where I'd never put it because of the kitty litter that is on the rug, as left over remnants from the storm. I use k. litter cuz it's better for the environment in regards to removing the ice from my handicapped ramp. (It's left over from the last tenant)

So, at this point it appears my jewelry box is gone as well. Back in 02 when I was 39 I lost my entire life's accumulation if jewelery (cept 1 piece) (well it was stolen) and since then I've acquired about 100 dollars worth of jewelry. Gifts and such. So now that appears to be gone.

At La Pew, I'd have to regularly inventory every item in the apt. I'd assess it's worth and keep that in a hidden notebook. Talk about time consuming. But the way these gangs operate is that, one time they might come in and take 3 pairs of underwear and 3 of your best bowls. Another time they might take cash. Another time they'd take a knife and add more carvings to the wood of my bedroom dressers.

So, it's all about keeping me in a state of terror. They'd add more vandalism to my car almost daily. Well, if someone has indeed been in here, then my new computer is at risk as well.

I noticed yesterday that my bogus you tube videos have been removed from my facebook account. I didn't do that.

Anyhow, I'll call non emergency police after I go thru the house and get as organized as possible. Get some mental clarity. I think if all they see is chaos they are more likely to think "well the place looks like a disaster area, you probably just misplaced the item"

But as far as this animal or human part that was on my bedroom floor. Well, this should be interesting getting this analyzed. Also, there is something new on the bttom of my computer screen. It's an eyeball and next to it is a red "circle" with a line thru it. So, that's creepy too. What is it? Can you tell me? You can feel free to email me directly my email address is on my website.

"very very very bad news"

About 3 weeks ago, I began seeing some patterns that are nearly identical to what i saw when I lived at La Pew. Food taken from my refrigerator with the wrappers left on floor, food with strange substances added to it, a med. bottle with a strange substance on the outside of it, my bag of recyclables scattered on the floor, my spinner (windchime) taken off the hook on the front porch and the spinner thrown to the other side.

A few days ago, my dish with nickels and dimes had no nickels and dimes in it. This evening I found an object next to my bed which I can't identify. (at la pew they'd kill rats and leave them on my floor)

This object in my bedroom is not like anything I've ever seen. Human flesh? animal intestine part? I don't know. But when the cop came by last week, she left me with her business card and report #. I kept it next to the computer where I could easily find it. It's gone as of tonight.

She said she doesn't think anybody has really been in my place but that I am traumatized from where I used to live. She said, nonetheless, she will increase patrols in the area and also interview my next door neighbor who notices most people who walk by...........................

Tomorrow, sadly, I will call non emergency police or go by the station. Last time I asked her if she could test this liquid for me and she said "this isn't csi. People think we have all this sophisticated equipment, but we don't."

Folks, it shocks me that any one any gang would want to come this far out to terrorize me again..............................will I have to leave the state cuz of this problem?

Commonly held misconceptions

I was at the Hampstead Community Fair today and this one vendor said to me "What?! You live in public housing AND have a car?"

It seemed like a round about accusation that I have somehow lied or cheated the system. I said "Do you want to tell me how I'm supposed to live in the country without a car?"

I also said "There are many many people in public housing with cars" "And believe you me there have been plenty of situations where i had to skip a meal so i could pay for some car expense or put gas in the car!"

The fair was nice, but one theme that reoccurs year after year when I got to various fairs and festivals is even if i am bartering to get into the festival, my barter work never "covers food" So I usually feel a little cheated because i see food and drinks and typicall don't have the money to get anything.

One guy today was selling slices of pizza for 2 dollars. Its a place i go to 2x a month or so so he knows me. I thought it was free because there was no sign saying it cost money. So, I said Oh, 2 dollars i can't because i don't have any money. he said o.k.

I thought he should have just donated a slice as an act of goodwill. As it stands by fair end, he had alot of pizza left, and likely threw it away or something ;(

But at the fair was my doctor, my nurse practitioner, my physical therapist and my dentist....................Isn't that interesting? and it wasn't a health fair, it was a fair showing off many local businesses.

My fave booths were

"Shiloh Pottery"

and

"Old Line Publishing"

good event, good event. I mean normally going out on the town means going to the local library showing of Mary Poppins, going to the town hall for pancakes, or going Christmas caroling!

Good town if you are living with your happy family and cute little children...................

"I forgot to feel afraid"

During the blizzards (i really should post my blizzard diary) everytime I needed to walk from room to room I'd carry my set of keys! (boy, that elana is a strange one) Why?

Because the keys have my only working flashlight on them.(I have a real flashlight but i can't seem to get the batteries loaded in such a way that the flashlight will do me any good) since i don't use candles, i needed to be prepared in the event that the utilities should go out which bge said was a good likelihood.

But, I forgot to be afraid. And until 30 min. ago, I kinda "forgot" that strong winds (i hear 65 mph tonight) can shut everything off too!

So, I'm eating my dinner and the lights are flickering off and on and I go find my keys and realize I need to start carrying them from room to room with me again. even to the bathroom? yup, fraid so.

oyyy!

"A puppy or a preschooler"

The moment I walk in the door she vies (sic) for my attention. She whines , whimpers, and begs that I not just say hi, but cuddle her, coddle her and converse with her.

She is my new computer, my new internet connection. She doesn't want me to have a life outside of her. If she were my husband , I might consider going for marital counseling. But I love her, and I don't want to neglect her-she means well.

"What's Your Real Age"

I took the test 4 years ago, and I was not even remotely surprised at the results. My "real age" was significantly higher then my bio age of 46. This test comes off of the www.realage.com site and is put together by Dr. Oz. The way they analyze the results so deeply is quite fascinating. And by the way my real age is 58!