Thursday, April 4, 2013
Syria before and after the war.
I know what it is like to have to flee violence. I know what it is like to be a refugee. I know what it is like to starve. I know what it is like to have nowhere to run. And this is why I am posting this video.
"Each day is the to do list from hell"
Seriously ill and largely unable to do much at all. But every day is a grueling to do list. I wish i could tell you the whole thing, but i really can only tell part of it.
The combination of migraines, serious illnesses, and severe sleep deprivation means i really can't get much done at all.
This is day 3 migraine. My imitrex will not be covered until the eleventh. On 2/14, the new doctor gave me a shot in both arms for my migraine but all it did was give me 2 sore arms. If i go to e.r., I have to deal with them attempting to put an i.v. in me and they can never find a good vein.
As long as i'm not sleeping i can't get rid of the headache. I have to move, but there is practically nothing for those of us on a disability income.
I use an ice pak up to 4 hours a day and transfer it from body part to body part. It occurs to me if i freeze my entire body i won't hurt anymore.
R\ead article on m.s. and thought, oh yes, i have all of those symptoms.
trouble walking
neurological problems
blurred vision
Vision has been extremely blurred. Trying to get around to doctors when you don't even have a car, it really isn't happening.
My insurance covers the eye exam but not the glasses.
The combination of migraines, serious illnesses, and severe sleep deprivation means i really can't get much done at all.
This is day 3 migraine. My imitrex will not be covered until the eleventh. On 2/14, the new doctor gave me a shot in both arms for my migraine but all it did was give me 2 sore arms. If i go to e.r., I have to deal with them attempting to put an i.v. in me and they can never find a good vein.
As long as i'm not sleeping i can't get rid of the headache. I have to move, but there is practically nothing for those of us on a disability income.
I use an ice pak up to 4 hours a day and transfer it from body part to body part. It occurs to me if i freeze my entire body i won't hurt anymore.
R\ead article on m.s. and thought, oh yes, i have all of those symptoms.
trouble walking
neurological problems
blurred vision
Vision has been extremely blurred. Trying to get around to doctors when you don't even have a car, it really isn't happening.
My insurance covers the eye exam but not the glasses.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
"What's nice about a small town/Mountain Town"
I needed to get over to a particular shopping center to redeem my paycheck. But, i only had a quarter instead of the .65 needed for the one way fare.
I simply showed up at the bus stop and told the driver that i was going to redeem my check, and that in an hour i would pay my full fare.
That's not a problem at all Elana, she said.
I replied "I think most everyone knows I am a woman of my word!"
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Then, on the first my credit card didn't work. The restaurant let me go to the bank to resoluve the situation. They said, just come back when your ready. I said "You don't even want my phone #?"
"No, that is not necessary!" they said
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today i went back to the restaurnat paid the bill, and a nice tip. I said "I am a woman of my word"
"We know that! In fact i told the waiter, Elana, she's good for the money!"
I simply showed up at the bus stop and told the driver that i was going to redeem my check, and that in an hour i would pay my full fare.
That's not a problem at all Elana, she said.
I replied "I think most everyone knows I am a woman of my word!"
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Then, on the first my credit card didn't work. The restaurant let me go to the bank to resoluve the situation. They said, just come back when your ready. I said "You don't even want my phone #?"
"No, that is not necessary!" they said
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today i went back to the restaurnat paid the bill, and a nice tip. I said "I am a woman of my word"
"We know that! In fact i told the waiter, Elana, she's good for the money!"
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Animals and Sleep/Radio Lab
a.n. equals authors note (me!)
About 40 percent of the writing i do in my journal is notetaking from listening to npr!
It is my hope to share the notes and the shows but it is tough to keep up
On Radio lab almost 3 weeks ago they did a show on sleep. I wasn't as interested in the animal part as the human part, and i did miss maybe the first 10 min. of the show. But this is so so relevant since i only sleep a few minutes a night these days.
here are my notes from the show
Scaly ancestors took millions of years to close both eyes!
You have a higher risk of being killed if you sleep and are an animal (a.n.=and true for certain humans as well!)
Enter sleep lab in Minn.
they were viewing sleep terror episodes people have visceral dreams of being attacked. parasomnia means around sleep
Dr. Shenk
Martin Z is a patient who beats his wife while he sleeps!
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35 million americans have chronic insomnia
Steve Lima is Indiana State University
Mom's name is hannah, she made audio diary about her trouble with sleep. At her job she had trouble speaking due to sleep deprisivation. When her baby would not sleep people would give her stupid advice constantly/implying she is a failure at being a mom.
When she does however get her proper sleep she feels she has a great life!
Sleep deprivation keeps you angry she says (and i would have to agree!)
Hanna said "You CRAVE sleep!
Chemically what happens during sleep deprivation? asks employyee of Univ. of PA
"You have an unfolded protein response; where Proteins are accumulating in your cells as clumps and this is toxic!
It causes your cells to break down. Therefore sleep is a cleaner uppper (one serious problem i'm having with my roomate keeping me up around the clock is chronic migraines)
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Professor of psychiatry at Madison says "Every thought we have causes new connections. During sleep, the connections weaken
Bob Stickgold from Harvard asks Why do we dream
Matt Wilson is a neuroscientist from the dream lab.
Dreaming allows you to try new things.
In the lab after folks slept for 2 minutes, we would wake them up/that's the high point of your day (?)
Then we would let them sleep 2 hours then awaken them. the dream is a remix of the day, the dream free associates.
You work our your problems while sleeping
Dreaming is very emotional, technicolor!
a.n . All i can tell you is this. Severe sleep deprivation is nothing short of torture. All i can do right now is just go through the motions of survival. I cannot do anything to really bettter my life until i catch up on sleep
About 40 percent of the writing i do in my journal is notetaking from listening to npr!
It is my hope to share the notes and the shows but it is tough to keep up
On Radio lab almost 3 weeks ago they did a show on sleep. I wasn't as interested in the animal part as the human part, and i did miss maybe the first 10 min. of the show. But this is so so relevant since i only sleep a few minutes a night these days.
here are my notes from the show
Scaly ancestors took millions of years to close both eyes!
You have a higher risk of being killed if you sleep and are an animal (a.n.=and true for certain humans as well!)
Enter sleep lab in Minn.
they were viewing sleep terror episodes people have visceral dreams of being attacked. parasomnia means around sleep
Dr. Shenk
Martin Z is a patient who beats his wife while he sleeps!
---------------------------------------------------
35 million americans have chronic insomnia
Steve Lima is Indiana State University
Mom's name is hannah, she made audio diary about her trouble with sleep. At her job she had trouble speaking due to sleep deprisivation. When her baby would not sleep people would give her stupid advice constantly/implying she is a failure at being a mom.
When she does however get her proper sleep she feels she has a great life!
Sleep deprivation keeps you angry she says (and i would have to agree!)
Hanna said "You CRAVE sleep!
Chemically what happens during sleep deprivation? asks employyee of Univ. of PA
"You have an unfolded protein response; where Proteins are accumulating in your cells as clumps and this is toxic!
It causes your cells to break down. Therefore sleep is a cleaner uppper (one serious problem i'm having with my roomate keeping me up around the clock is chronic migraines)
--------------------------------------------------------
Professor of psychiatry at Madison says "Every thought we have causes new connections. During sleep, the connections weaken
Bob Stickgold from Harvard asks Why do we dream
Matt Wilson is a neuroscientist from the dream lab.
Dreaming allows you to try new things.
In the lab after folks slept for 2 minutes, we would wake them up/that's the high point of your day (?)
Then we would let them sleep 2 hours then awaken them. the dream is a remix of the day, the dream free associates.
You work our your problems while sleeping
Dreaming is very emotional, technicolor!
a.n . All i can tell you is this. Severe sleep deprivation is nothing short of torture. All i can do right now is just go through the motions of survival. I cannot do anything to really bettter my life until i catch up on sleep
Monday, April 1, 2013
"Overheard cell phone conversations"
Man on bus to whoever "So do you want to get a piece of ass?"
yelling he repeats "Do you want a piece of ass?"
again "DO YOU WANT TO POP A CHERRY?" he screams even louder
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today i overheard the same "conversation" in 2 different offices, receptionists discussing their private lives in a way that everybody can hear.
"yeah he was throwing up and throwing up"
library receptionist private conversation "YEAH HE WAS THROWIN' UP ALL NIGHT!"
(there was a hilarious skit on prairie home companion last night that took place in nyc. in the skit folks are yelling at this guy with a new york accent who is screaming into his cell phone in a cafe. check it out)
yelling he repeats "Do you want a piece of ass?"
again "DO YOU WANT TO POP A CHERRY?" he screams even louder
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today i overheard the same "conversation" in 2 different offices, receptionists discussing their private lives in a way that everybody can hear.
"yeah he was throwing up and throwing up"
library receptionist private conversation "YEAH HE WAS THROWIN' UP ALL NIGHT!"
(there was a hilarious skit on prairie home companion last night that took place in nyc. in the skit folks are yelling at this guy with a new york accent who is screaming into his cell phone in a cafe. check it out)
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