Grateful yet helpless

The severe round-the-clock banging has started back up again around 3 weeks ago. Needless to say even if I do try to go to bed at a normal hour it doesn't matter because somebody's going to slam a door and wake me up. The last time I asked for help from the rental office she also was unable to determine where the banging was coming from. I could ask for a transfer as I have done in the past, but its all pot luck I could end up in an apartment complex even worse than the one I'm in. The only answer is to live in a home a house of your choosing and your neighborhood but you know that is not going to happen for me

Looking back at First Blog Post 4//2007

Welcome to my first blog site! 2 nights ago, i was so desperate to get away from the chaos and noise of my neighborhood and bldg. that I checked into the inn. I've only been here a little over 24 hours and I feel like a different person. You see I live in a gov't subsidized bldg, where I just found out that that funky smell making it's way into my apt. is my neighbor's crack/cocaine.

At home I hear dogs barking around the clock, one of the neighbors uses woofers so my walls shake from the stereo.  Police don't seem to care about noise pollution even though it is torture.  The tenants scream and yell constantly even in ordinary conversations.

 Did I mention that the maintenance men are regularly stealing from us? Yes, I've found the following missing. Clothes, dishes, silverware, food, can opener, cookware, tapes, and money just to give you the tip of the iceberg on what life was like here.

 I am desperate for a better life, and waited 11.5 years to get into subsidized housing which i was sure would help me climb out of poverty.  I never dreamed I'd have to live in fear.  Checking into the "inn"  for a couple of days is a first step toward clearing my head, and hopefully finding a better life for myself somehow!