Thursday, September 23, 2010

Monday, September 20, 2010

Adopted

Wow!

Please check out my new find!

www.adoptionhealing.com

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

"Thank you for your comment"

I often dream of  sending my journals to Michael Moore and partnering with him. I saw him in person doing a presentation at the Baltimore Museum of Art  but was too "shy" to introduce myself. I still imagine contacting him to tell him what I'm doing. I have contacted others that are doing books similar to his; to see if they'd like to partner with me.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

"The arranged marriage"

Remember the clerk whose marriage is being arranged? ;) I told him today that he is very hot and a great catch, fiance is very lucky! He said "Why didn't you tell me that before I got engaged?!"

I said I did tell you via giving you my #, then the next time I saw you, you were wearing an engagement ring!

Monday, September 6, 2010

Rural apartment living

To say that I cannot STAND apartment living is the understatement of a lifetime. I feel most desperate to get out of here. 

 But I've lived in apartments for most of the last 35 years and they are ALL horrible.

I have heard that there are complexes that  have soundproofed walls and ceilings-but they must be few and far between because I've never lived in one.

There is round the clock banging here like there was at La Pew and I'm being blamed for it. My neighbors scream outside my bedroom window and this is after 1 a.m.!   Even with my windows closed if I'm on phone I cannot even hear the caller!

There is a thick, sick smell of cigarettes that seeps thru the eastern wall and southern wall of my apt. which means the smoke is coming from  2 separate apartments.

   I  burn incense or scented candles to get rid of the toxic odors.   The cooking smells make me sick to my stomach, nauseous, as they blend with stale cigarettes. I filled out my first application to get into Twisted Pines in 2002 most certain that it would raise my quality of life by leaps and bounds.

 I envisioned a sense of community and friendliness.

The last interaction I had with a neighbor was when she (don't know who she is) told me where I can and cannot park. She then said about herself: "You never know, I might be God for all you know!"

And of course there are the burglaries.

I was researching the possibility of living in Merida, Mex. but the forum participants explained to me that my disability check won't transfer to  Mexico so I would lose all of my benefits.

It is an absolute necessity for me to get out if I want any chance of getting healthier or happier but I am convinced that there is nowhere to run.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Marilyn Monroe - Interview after marriage to Miller re HUAC. HiQ



I had never heard her speak before-she sure is charismatic! What a charmer! And like elton john said she's a candle in the wind.

Friday, September 3, 2010

"My friend Joanne"

Please check out www.joannejuskusmusic.com

I was briefly in a  duo entitled: "Otherwise Engaged."

  We got to open for Joanne! Definitely exciting to be on stage and to open for this amazing woman. 

I haven't quite figured out how to listen to all of her songs but cd baby does allow you to preview about 3. I'll always remember Joanne for her song Happy Birthday which sends shivers down my spine!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Bittersweet

I just found tonight that my  (biological) half sister and  niece (who I may have met once when she was baby)  both have facebook accounts

. Last I saw "sis and niece" was about 94. Sis is 45 now and niece is 16 and an absolute beauty

. But out of respect to them not only can I not tell you their names, I can't even send them a message saying hello, because sis opted in 94 not to remain in contact with me . Sis didn't know that I eexisted until 89 when I completed my search for my birthmother, so she was raised an only child like I was.

"Is there ANY good news?"

 I've been feeling devastated and very traumatized from 14 months worth of nearly daily vandalism to my car. Especially as I thought about the thousands of dollars worth of damage that's been done.

The GOOD news is, because my car is SO OLD, i've lost no more then a couple hundred dollars in trade in value!

I study cars on the road, in parking lots.  -Typically I make a mental  note of the make and model.

I've always driven cars that are old, even though it makes more financial sense to drive newer cars as long as you can afford the up front costs.   Repair expenses are  astronomical. In my mind, it is more sensible to make a slightly higher car payment, then to sink a thousand dollars into my 14 year old car every 3 months! But because I can't pass credit checks I don't qualify for a new car.

KBB value is between 500 and 625 on my car regardless of what she's lived thru!