Thursday, September 29, 2016

I'm half Russian Jew

Im trying to find out if any aspects of my personality are connected in any wY, to my cultural heritage.

So, one of the things I read: The Russians feel that the Americans, (such as cashiers, shoppers) are always smiling in public at strangers. They find it pretentious, phony, quite frankly, so do I.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Quote of the night

"I choose to live because I have huge friendship and family support system but Im lucky, not everyone has that!"

(He also has enormous financial resources)

Monday, September 26, 2016

Flashback Australia

End extreme poverty initiative 2016

Havent seen it yet, im guessing I'll have a pretty cynical feeling about it all since Ill Never b anything but extremely poor.

So, likely the extremely poor will only get more desperate with each passing year.

Wage stagnation, inflation, unaffordable housing/



Quote of the night

Jerry asks a man who just converted to Judaism, if he enjoyed his workout at the gym

"I stayed in the hot tub the entire time, I had a good Jewish workout!"

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Book t.v.

The d.c. book festival

Below deck

"Who smiles constantly?!! Her resting face is a smile. Only dogs and crazy people smile constantly!"

Deck hand about her new coworker

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Quote of the night

"Women now have no choice but to go out and work, and they don't want to, but their daddies can't make ends meet anymore!"

Quote of the night

"Thank GOD there was no karaoke! Or maybe there was and I blocked it out!" Anthony B.

Friday, September 23, 2016


That's the consensus

I hear some version of it daily.

"Home is where your family is"

If its true, then I think it's 100 percent fair to say, that I've been homeless all my life.

Simmons concert for military

Question for Gene from female military officer was:

"How many women have you slept with?"

After he whispered the answer to her, she replied WHAT?! NO WAY!!

Gene_"Im a very religious man and the bible orders us to spread our seed!!!"

Excerpt of Le's article

"By using good street smarts, you can avoid being the victim of a violent crime"

(Written shortly before her dead body was found on what was supposed to be her wedding day!)

Le was 24 , when she was murdered inside a Yale University lab.

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Quote of the night

"I've been through alot in my life, it takes ALOT to break me! Israel

The men here r a mess

Its really tragic. The single men in Flagstaff r a complete mess, most seem to have extremely severe developmental disabilities.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Im 18 "live"

Flock of seagulls

Missing Persons

Shooting star lyrics

Johnny died one night

Died in his bed

Bottle of whiskey, sleeping tablets by his head

Johnnys life passed him by like a warm summer day

If you listen to the wind you can still hear him play


"My skill comes from all my years in the kitchen!" 10 y.o. Christopher Pappas referencing his 7 years of cooking experience.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

What is an intellectual?

Louanne Barton

"She was just a sassy sex kitten who could sing!"

Reel to real

Stevie Ray Vaughan

Haircut time!

Schedules | AXS TV

Schedules | AXS TV

So much better then mtv and vh1 ever was!

Beegees on the beach

The Beegees

The beegees in bed

Beegees fashion

The Bee Gees

A huge aspect of the appeal of many 60s, 70s, and 80s musicians is the fashion and costumes, for me.

The Bee Gees

The bee gees

One of my top favorites. Just watched the bio on

Monday, September 19, 2016

Doing the math

I've calculated that in order to simply SUBSIST in Flagstaff, I would need to quadruple my income to

$48,000 year

Any questions?


True story of an American pacifist. (Never seen, looks phenomenal)

The x factor

Walk the line


Quote of the night

"When u got a singin voice you gotta use it! Johnny Cash to June Carter Cash

Saturday, September 17, 2016

The blogosphere

Only 7 percent of the world's bloggers are over 50! (I'm 53)

Friday, September 16, 2016


Quote of the day

"Every independent princess still NEEDS a Prince! Founder "seeking arrangement"

This is life with lisa ling

Workshops on "pick up artistry" for men, interesting!

Started job in 05

Still doing my p/t job counseling the homeless and its one of the most meaningful aspects of my life, very fulfilling

Quote of the day

"We had nice Jewish sex!" Seth Rogen

Poverty is serious ongoing crisis

For 70% of the year as an example 2/3 of each month I am in fight or flight mode trying to figure out how to live on $3 a day for everything. The biggest thing that puts you in fight or flight mode is Crisis food crisis

All of my burners as well as my oven have very very bad and everything is turned on no it's not gas but it's electric.

I tried calling the maintenance man in here I actually have a long list of things that need to be repaired, he was stupid enough to bust my water heater even though I told him that there was a risk that could happen and to be very very careful he flooded nearly all of my apartment so I simply do not trust him and hear it

So the combination of situation with the stove as well as the oven  is a serious ongoing crisis it makes it very very difficult to function at all/im always mentally in fight or flight as I try to problem solve

If I sell the car I could finally go down and spend some time in Sedona as well as have a few weeks with extra food so obviously that's not a long-term solution even if I did use mountain lift due to the bad ice here  you have to pay out of pocket and it's pretty expensive!

UC events you want to participate in true meet up but you don't have financial means to do any of them

I'd like to go back and visit The free thinkers at their meeting place people bring their dogs but I do not patronize business that allow non service dogs into their establishment so that's really not an option....

The car is drivable but I don't want to run it into the ground even though the repair would be affordable to most people it's not affordable to me. As you know trying to run more than one errand in a day on this is absolutely exhausting and requires a great deal of walking.

Been watching a lot of Soul Train Dance videos a lot of concerts a lot of which is everything to do with music and concerts!

When my head is completely surrounded with music then I typically feel over the moon happy/but its a distraction nit a solution.

The overwhelming majority of the time I don't like unsolicited advice from anybody but especially not rich people because they have no clue and no business giving advice when they never had to live through any of this. But if you're not a millionaire and you want to give me advice especially if you've gone through poverty and you want to give me advice and I'm open-minded.

I could set up a go fund me account but the bottom line is just sick to death of living like this

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Quote of the day

"I just need clear concise communication. IT'S REALLY SIMPLE!" Captain Lee

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

My symbiotic relationship with the radio

I was literally just thinking about a song called throwing it all Away and I was wondering actually what it was called I knew that part of the lyrics had to do with Throwing It All Away. Very next song they played on the radio was called Throwing It All Away by Phil Collins.

This is nearly a daily tjing with me and media for 20 plus years!

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

quote of the day

"I feel like I want to follow all my dreams" Elena

Monday, September 12, 2016

The Color Purple

right now I'm watching Whoopi Goldberg be abused by her husband on the movie called The Color Purple. Whoopi Goldberg actually wrote a book that influenced me to flee from my stalker on 4/7/2011 abandon my apartment leave my car and all my belongings and buy a one-way ticket 2400  miles to Phoenix to check into the domestic violence shelter!

Thank you Whoopie!

Killer Instinct with Chris Hansen

Quote of the day

"I'm ALL alone in the world" karen kemp referencing the 1991 murder of her husband Jesse Peewee Whitley

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Business insider

(A highly intelligent list!)

A tortured life

Actor Anthony Perkins did have a fascinating and tortured life I can certainly relate to the title of his memoir. Anyone who doesn't know about his life there are some fascinating articles online about him that I highly recommend.

He starred in Psycho 1960

Saturday, September 10, 2016


Watching now for first time. Took me 41 years to work up the courage to watch!

Funny, seems like I know them all

After 15 years

I'd say it took me about 15 years on the streets to realize the reason why I barely ever met another woman in my situation. It's because ninety-nine times out of a hundred woman's extended family will do whatever they have to do to keep her from having to experience the brutality and dangers of life on the streets

Quote of the night

"DON'T you even think about judging another human being until you've walked a mile in their shoes" Frank

The amy linn episode


It never ceases to amaze me the way humans recover mentally/emotionally from severe trauma.

Because I see it in myself, I can only credit my ancestors for the change I see in myself.

Mama Cass

Did you know that mama Cass Elliott thought very highly of the Bahai religion? Neither did I, its quite surprising to me. I learned it at a Bahai fireside tonight.

(No, I'll never b Bahai. Confirmed humanist and Atheist forever)

All things considered

All in all, Flagstaff brings out the best in my personality that Baltimore never could...

Friday, September 9, 2016


This image is spectacular

Neil young then


You can't permanently change your apartment to make it feel like your own, ever since I moved in here is something that I didn't know whether I was redoing all of my kitchen cabinets. Hideous.

So I looked up removable contact paper images kitchen. I wasn't any way that you can make your home feel like your own!

Clean home, clear mind

In apts, you hav no choice but to live with carpeting. I lose my mind when it traps every bad thing under the sun and hurts your health.

I try to hav it shampooed annually.

2012 journal

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Shooting star

Don't you know that you are a shooting star

Bad company

Top 20 songs that resonate SO STRONG Ly with me.!

Watching bad company in concert

The middle

There are two types of people in this world those who are meant to live their life to the fullest and those who are meant to read about those people. . .

I am the latter!  Brik

Hopi festival

Hopi festival

I was there, amazing show


Please ignore traffic light

Quote of the night

"Im just grateful to finally have found someone normal to talk to!"

Saudi referencing a man who is someone besides her stalker!

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Diggin this movie music!

Had no clue Cannon and Harvey are actors!


Synchronistically, even while watching this, I have cold burning feet with pins and needles, cold hands, my right wrist is throbbing and being stabbed as we speak. That's what its like to b in this bidy. Chostochondritis, feels like heart attack. Left earache, blurry vision.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

The x factor

"Your fantastically nuts and I love it! Cowell to living doll

Watching bob Dylan 30th anniversary concert

The concert was exactly 8 weeks after my 30th bday!

Diggin these az clouds

Monday, September 5, 2016

Quote of the day

One criminal to another. "Don't worry, nobody knows where we are, unless you are registered to vote!"

(I was forced to stop voting, since I am being stalked and can easily be tracked)

Howard Rollins

Check it out

Howard Rollins wiki

(Phenomenal actor, roots, in the heat of the night)

Saturday, September 3, 2016

Lynyrd skynyrd tribute concert

Watching lynyrd skynyrd one more for the road on axstv

The person I want 2b

Despite the thousands and thousands of experiences that I personally had with black on white racism now that I've left Baltimore approach every interaction every meeting with an African American in Arizona as if I'm living a brand-new life (without those tragic experiences in my background.) As far as I'm concerned every single human being deserves a fresh chance so I do everything in my power to put those memories out of my mind when I'm making new African American acquaintances or friends....

Blue bloods

" the enemy of my enemy is my friend"

Thursday, September 1, 2016

1957 movie quote

"By the time you grow up men wont b wearing guns"

"Echoes of the search"