Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Still awake

Awake around the clock.

Quality t.v.

Segregation, the rise of white supremacy and other important topics regarding the portrayal of minorities such as Muslims.

Monday, June 26, 2017


Sunday, June 25, 2017

Sooo amazing

Saturday, June 24, 2017

After words

No safety net for poor Americans.

Thursday, June 22, 2017


based on what I've read on the internet I'm diagnosing myself with fatal familial insomnia

I am not going for a sleep study because I have heard that they're torturous and I know that having wires hooked all over me will also make it impossible to fall asleep I just taking it upon myself to switch my medications on my own

The walk-in emergency clinic turn me away and the earliest they can see me is in two more weeks and I just feel like I can't stand the idea of being awake for another 2 weeks. I don't know anyone else like me who can stay awake for more than a month at a time other than Michael Jackson sounds like propofol might be a good idea for me but I'll bet doctors are hesitant to prescribe it even though the severe insomnia can kill you

It would be extremely difficult to get to my own doctor because everything in Flagstaff is a long hilly difficult and where Rocky walk from the bus stop to wherever it is that you need to go and I'm simply too weak to truly walk anymore

Monday, June 19, 2017

Xtremely severe insomnia

in the last 4 weeks I've slept 8 hours in a block of two different nights other than that I don't fall asleep until after 6 a.m. and even then I don't fall asleep I mean if I'm lucky I'll sleep 3 minutes wake up be awake for 2 hours sleep another 3 minutes wake up this is just something that's been going on for my whole life and I'm barely standing


Cares events were designed so that apt. Residents will stay longer .......

They dont work in that regard; most folks stay 3 ti 10 months.

1200 fir a one bedroom apt. in a town where ur lucky to earn 400 a week before taxes!

Impenetrable barrier

Ive been in Flagstaff for 6.years. since roughly 2000 ive had virtually no exposure to relationships with well to do Americans.

When folks in poverty have no exposure to or ability to befriend folks who r succeeding in life their chances of bettering their lives are pretty much nil.

Welcome to my living hell.

I can dig it!

Turns out, this entire 4 years ive had all the mc cable channels but didnt know it!

Sunday, June 18, 2017

For my dear friend Melissa in Westminster

Absolutely beautiful

Gay friendly choirs with beatboxing! Just absolutely beautiful

Saturday, June 17, 2017


Adoption trauma book recommends in labels

Wednesday, June 14, 2017


Monday, June 12, 2017

Soul train

Pardon my French

Initially, I was curious if Arizona single men would b different from single men in Indiana and Baltimore, md.

But, I'd like to reiterate that nearly every single guy I've met is "bat shit crazy!"

(Coming from ME, the American woman whose had a worse life then anybody I've met and/or am aware of through books and reality t.v.!)

Friday, June 9, 2017


When I watch non fiction movies or t.v. shows I read articles about the person during commercials.

That being said: the larry hart movie was so beautiful, poignant and at the end very sad.

Living as a gay man in the 20s and 30s closeted, alcoholic and self conscious about his short stature was a very hard life.

The only satisfaction he got was writing music and performing. What a remarkable lifetime contribution! And a long list of musical stars in the movie.

Please check it out: "words and music"

Why bother to shake

it's barely worth introducing yourself or shaking hands! the minute people move here they're making plans to move away!

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Old and new

Unofficial member of Final Exit Network and exit International

Here is the link to my other blog: (or com?)


I was in first grade during the premiere, just mildly "too old" for the show!

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

that's why I watch True Crime shows

In the repetitive violent crimes that I was a victim of in Baltimore City Carroll County Maryland and Flagstaff Arizona the perpetrator used white paint to destroy my belongings my furniture and my clothing

I just learned by watching this particular True Crime show that white paint in the Vietnam culture is equivalent to death! This made my mouth hang open when I heard it

The stalker and perpetrators of the crimes against me never served a day in jail or prison I have reason to believe to this day that I am still being stalked because of the very frequent vandalism to my automobile where I'm currently living

I was recently forced to sell the car