Friday, March 25, 2016

Pain too severe to sleep

I'm going to start on another sleep medication tonight, I cannot tolerate how little sleep I'm getting at night because it's very much affects my ability to function during the day. The combination of no sleep and such severe pain means that after only 2 hours out and about my pain is so severe that I need to go back home and lay down. So for the most part maximum time out of the house is 4 to 5 hours

And when I am at home even if it seems like I slept okay on a given night after about 3 hours up my eyes get very very heavy and I need to try to take a nap

Combine this with the frequency of migraines and I'd be kidding myself too even think about going back to work part-time

Since turning 50

For the majority of my adult life I did not have a television and even when I did I was usually too busy to watch TV.

But now that I have cable and I'm disabled I watch an inordinate amount of television I think I'm going to change that very soon

I was just looking up some information about my high school Randallstown Senior High School class of 81

And I'm reading about notable Randallstown High School alumni. One is singer songwriter, and one was executed on death row. By the way I'm an ID addict that means I watch a lot of True Crime. When I read the story about murderer Steven Oken I knew immediately that the story has been told on ID and I do remember that story very well. One of the women he killed he dumped her on White Marsh Boulevard. Lucky for me I had moved away to College Park just four months earlier. College Park Maryland that is. So I can't remember the names of both of the women that he murdered but one of the women that he murdered was Patricia hurt and like I said one of the women that he murdered he abandon on White Marsh Boulevard

There's an entry in one of my older journals about my having found a dead body around White Marsh on the highway however this journal entry was made after 1995...

Steven Oken would probably look familiar to me I think I'm going to go ahead and Google His image, because he is only one year older than me and graduated from Randallstown Senior High in 1980

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

I'll be in heaven for 2 hours

The local University will be airing the movie; j.c. superstar! tonight on the big screen . I've never seen it before  I'm sure it will remind me of when I sang and danced in the musical hair  at Catonsville community college in 1989 . My partner at the time ran sound for the musical

More jewish than I knew

Saturday, March 19, 2016

The adoptive Family, biological family, no family

It can take a long time to make connections when you've got such a strange family story like I do. And I just made some connections tonight mental connections that is that I would like to share with you

My adoptive father died in October 1992 but I did not know the date until just now when I looked it up on Google. All of my searching has to be done with no money so that's definitely an extra challenge but I'm most grateful for all that I'm learning on the internet. It turns out that his actual date of death was October 15th 1992 and I assumed it was at Johns Hopkins Hospital but I'll look into that later.

I had been estranged from my entire family since 1990 comma mother did not want me to come too father's funeral and she ensured that would be the case because I did not have the money to fly back to Maryland even if I did want to go to his funeral and most certainly No One In My adoptive family was going to pay to make sure that I could go to the funeral

In 2002 when I figured out which cemetery Arnold was at my friend Leslie drove me there the veterans cemetery in Owings Mills Maryland. This is so Bittersweet so poignant that I should have to walk around looking for his grave we did find it

And even more poignant is the fact that I recently found out by searching on Google the date of my biological mother's burial. She was buried in a family plot that my birth mother does not want me to know even exists. Okay this just keeps getting crazier and crazier it turns out that she was also buried essentially right down the street from Arnold oh within days or weeks of his burial! Did you get all that?

How do you think you would feel if you knew that your own birth mother does not want you to know about a family burial plot and most certainly is going to make sure that you don't get to be buried there when you die. On my feelings are my feelings hurt? No no I learned how to bury my feelings at a very young age

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

I.d. addict

" it's one thing to realize you've entered a bad neighborhood and you need to get out but how are you supposed to get out of your own home"

Thursday, March 10, 2016

The french line

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Seinfeld trivia that's news to me

It's the episode where Elaine wears Baltimore baseball cap to a New York Yankees game and is asked to remove it when she refuses to remove her cat she decides to just leave and not watch the game at all her boss asks her quote you're from Baltimore aren't you Elaine?

Response? Well actually I'm from Towson she replies