Im trying to find out if any aspects of my personality are connected in any wY, to my cultural heritage.
So, one of the things I read: The Russians feel that the Americans, (such as cashiers, shoppers) are always smiling in public at strangers. They find it pretentious, phony, quite frankly, so do I.
"I choose to live because I have huge friendship and family support system but Im lucky, not everyone has that!"
(He also has enormous financial resources)
https://youtu.be/5KXga05LZuk
Havent seen it yet, im guessing I'll have a pretty cynical feeling about it all since Ill Never b anything but extremely poor.
So, likely the extremely poor will only get more desperate with each passing year.
Wage stagnation, inflation, unaffordable housing/
Hope?
Fugedaboutit
Jerry asks a man who just converted to Judaism, if he enjoyed his workout at the gym
"I stayed in the hot tub the entire time, I had a good Jewish workout!"
"Who smiles constantly?!! Her resting face is a smile. Only dogs and crazy people smile constantly!"
Deck hand about her new coworker
"Women now have no choice but to go out and work, and they don't want to, but their daddies can't make ends meet anymore!"
"Thank GOD there was no karaoke! Or maybe there was and I blocked it out!" Anthony B.
I hear some version of it daily.
"Home is where your family is"
If its true, then I think it's 100 percent fair to say, that I've been homeless all my life.
Question for Gene from female military officer was:
"How many women have you slept with?"
After he whispered the answer to her, she replied WHAT?! NO WAY!!
Gene_"Im a very religious man and the bible orders us to spread our seed!!!"
"By using good street smarts, you can avoid being the victim of a violent crime"
(Written shortly before her dead body was found on what was supposed to be her wedding day!)
Le was 24 , when she was murdered inside a Yale University lab.
Its really tragic. The single men in Flagstaff r a complete mess, most seem to have extremely severe developmental disabilities.
Johnny died one night
Died in his bed
Bottle of whiskey, sleeping tablets by his head
Johnnys life passed him by like a warm summer day
If you listen to the wind you can still hear him play
"My skill comes from all my years in the kitchen!" 10 y.o. Christopher Pappas referencing his 7 years of cooking experience.
"She was just a sassy sex kitten who could sing!"
Www.axstv.com
Reel to real
Stevie Ray Vaughan
A huge aspect of the appeal of many 60s, 70s, and 80s musicians is the fashion and costumes, for me.
I've calculated that in order to simply SUBSIST in Flagstaff, I would need to quadruple my income to
$48,000 year
Any questions?
Still doing my p/t job counseling the homeless and its one of the most meaningful aspects of my life, very fulfilling
For 70% of the year as an example 2/3 of each month I am in fight or flight mode trying to figure out how to live on $3 a day for everything. The biggest thing that puts you in fight or flight mode is Crisis food crisis
All of my burners as well as my oven have very very bad and everything is turned on no it's not gas but it's electric.
I tried calling the maintenance man in here I actually have a long list of things that need to be repaired, he was stupid enough to bust my water heater even though I told him that there was a risk that could happen and to be very very careful he flooded nearly all of my apartment so I simply do not trust him and hear it
So the combination of situation with the stove as well as the oven is a serious ongoing crisis it makes it very very difficult to function at all/im always mentally in fight or flight as I try to problem solve
If I sell the car I could finally go down and spend some time in Sedona as well as have a few weeks with extra food so obviously that's not a long-term solution even if I did use mountain lift due to the bad ice here you have to pay out of pocket and it's pretty expensive!
UC events you want to participate in true meet up but you don't have financial means to do any of them
I'd like to go back and visit The free thinkers at their meeting place people bring their dogs but I do not patronize business that allow non service dogs into their establishment so that's really not an option....
The car is drivable but I don't want to run it into the ground even though the repair would be affordable to most people it's not affordable to me. As you know trying to run more than one errand in a day on this is absolutely exhausting and requires a great deal of walking.
Been watching a lot of Soul Train Dance videos a lot of concerts a lot of www.axstv.com which is everything to do with music and concerts!
When my head is completely surrounded with music then I typically feel over the moon happy/but its a distraction nit a solution.
The overwhelming majority of the time I don't like unsolicited advice from anybody but especially not rich people because they have no clue and no business giving advice when they never had to live through any of this. But if you're not a millionaire and you want to give me advice especially if you've gone through poverty and you want to give me advice and I'm open-minded.
I could set up a go fund me account but the bottom line is just sick to death of living like this
I was literally just thinking about a song called throwing it all Away and I was wondering actually what it was called I knew that part of the lyrics had to do with Throwing It All Away. Very next song they played on the radio was called Throwing It All Away by Phil Collins.
This is nearly a daily tjing with me and media for 20 plus years!
right now I'm watching Whoopi Goldberg be abused by her husband on the movie called The Color Purple. Whoopi Goldberg actually wrote a book that influenced me to flee from my stalker on 4/7/2011 abandon my apartment leave my car and all my belongings and buy a one-way ticket 2400 miles to Phoenix to check into the domestic violence shelter!
Thank you Whoopie!
Quote of the day
"I'm ALL alone in the world" karen kemp referencing the 1991 murder of her husband Jesse Peewee Whitley
Www.businessinsider.com/7-traits-of-highly-intelligent-people-2015-6
(A highly intelligent list!)
Actor Anthony Perkins did have a fascinating and tortured life I can certainly relate to the title of his memoir. Anyone who doesn't know about his life there are some fascinating articles online about him that I highly recommend.
He starred in Psycho 1960
I'd say it took me about 15 years on the streets to realize the reason why I barely ever met another woman in my situation. It's because ninety-nine times out of a hundred woman's extended family will do whatever they have to do to keep her from having to experience the brutality and dangers of life on the streets
"DON'T you even think about judging another human being until you've walked a mile in their shoes" Frank
The amy linn episode
It never ceases to amaze me the way humans recover mentally/emotionally from severe trauma.
Because I see it in myself, I can only credit my ancestors for the change I see in myself.
Did you know that mama Cass Elliott thought very highly of the Bahai religion? Neither did I, its quite surprising to me. I learned it at a Bahai fireside tonight.
(No, I'll never b Bahai. Confirmed humanist and Atheist forever)
All in all, Flagstaff brings out the best in my personality that Baltimore never could...
You can't permanently change your apartment to make it feel like your own, ever since I moved in here is something that I didn't know whether I was redoing all of my kitchen cabinets. Hideous.
So I looked up removable contact paper images kitchen. I wasn't any way that you can make your home feel like your own!
In apts, you hav no choice but to live with carpeting. I lose my mind when it traps every bad thing under the sun and hurts your health.
I try to hav it shampooed annually.
There are two types of people in this world those who are meant to live their life to the fullest and those who are meant to read about those people. . .
I am the latter! Brik
"Im just grateful to finally have found someone normal to talk to!"
Saudi referencing a man who is someone besides her stalker!
Synchronistically, even while watching this, I have cold burning feet with pins and needles, cold hands, my right wrist is throbbing and being stabbed as we speak. That's what its like to b in this bidy. Chostochondritis, feels like heart attack. Left earache, blurry vision.
https://youtu.be/OgJNo6M279g
One criminal to another. "Don't worry, nobody knows where we are, unless you are registered to vote!"
(I was forced to stop voting, since I am being stalked and can easily be tracked)
Despite the thousands and thousands of experiences that I personally had with black on white racism now that I've left Baltimore approach every interaction every meeting with an African American in Arizona as if I'm living a brand-new life (without those tragic experiences in my background.) As far as I'm concerned every single human being deserves a fresh chance so I do everything in my power to put those memories out of my mind when I'm making new African American acquaintances or friends....
