they've been wanting me to start physical therapy

The obstacles are no different than they were when I started the blog 10 years ago and no different than they were when I entered abject poverty 23 years ago.

number one the car is not safe to drive

number two I cannot afford to repair it.

  number 3 I cannot get around, walk and balance on 6 to 8 inches of ice that will not melt until the end of May beginning of June.

Number 4 Dont have means to move to California for example.

Number 5

Even if I sold the car I would be forced to use taxi cabs which would burn through any money I would get from selling the car extremely rapidly.

The chances of my qualifying for a car repair loan are slim since my credit is poor, and I have a very slim chance of being able to hold down a part-time job since I'm wracked with bodywide excruciating pain and devastating weakness.

I continue to have no choices in life.

Synchronicity

"The day I remember the best is 6/25/1963!"

How would you want to be treated?

When people with an opposite political point of view or religious point of view begin preaching or speaking about it, I do everything I possibly can to show respect.

When I was at the food center the other day a woman began preaching, speaking a very right-wing point of view in regards to Christianity I responded:

" I respect you as a human being and I respect your point of view but I don't quite see it that way and I'm not comfortable sharing my own views on the subject"

As an atheist I would like to ask you (especially Christians) to give me and any other atheists that you might meet the same due respect.

Isn't that what Jesus would do?

T.c.m.

Precious, absolutely PRECIOUS movie!

" some women have to run after their second chance others have to sit and wait for it"

Quote of the night

My friend Rick to me:

" everything about you screams artist!"

(Isnt that an awesome compliment?)

Can we stop the clock on 12/31?

Dread will be setting in even worse then usual on 1/1/ 2017, I know more then half of Americans are dreading, even worse downright terrified.

;(

Of course I'm watching

Betcha didnt know I enjoy fashion!

Project Runway junior is even more amazing than Project Runway itself; I'm watching the unconventional materials pool party challenge!

The kids looks  going down the runway... I would wear most of the looks as the skinnier version of myself!

Congratulations kids ur amazing as always!

My bday buddy

The first ten years of my life My adoptive parents celebrated my birthday one day too late until I found the birth certificate showing them that I was actually born on June 24th 1963

Either way George Michael and I across the pond from one another were celebrating our birthdays roughly the same day every year for 53 years

George dob was 6/25/63

Mine was 6/24/63

Malnutrition?

Last night for dinner, ramen noodles with a small mystery pastry the landlord gave me for x mas.

Breakfast/lunch today is 8 bites of cream cheese (no money for bread) and a 4 oz. Container of Apple sauce I got for free from a church.

Tonight with my 1/2 gallon of gas, im forced to go to mission for dinner, where normally all I can stand to eat is the fruit.

Judy Garland

Rival to lindt chocolate

Brookside chocolate is one of the best brands!

Sooo annoying

Lemon juice, vinegar help but this problem is daily, annoying!

Christmas Eve

One of the many xmas songs I love to sing/perform.

Lawrence welk

Happy new year

Grandma Moses

It still looks like there is a very strong chance that Grandma Moses was one of my ancestors. She is in the king family, I am a king descendants, her migration patterns throughout the United States immediately pattern my own 6 time great grandfather John King.

We're both descendants of the Mayflower but not until I send my ancestry DNA test will I come closer to finding the answer

Calvin and Hobbes

Only a few days ago I was telling my acquaintance about Calvin and Hobbes and this particular sticker of course just a few days later I'm parked behind the sticker and assume that the person whose placed the sticker on their car has cancer as their horoscope sign like I do.

It took me awhile to realize after seeing the breast cancer ribbon on the back of the van that Calvin is pissing on cancer!

I "mourned" when I found out that my favorite cartoon strip writer was retiring years ago. I own the c and h compilation book (found in street along with nearly all possessions after what looked like an eviction)

Sesame street

Lawrence welk show

Acdc

Wish I was there!

I hate pennies but

I've been giving away my pennies for many years however today since I only had $2 to put in the gas tank I went to take pennies out of the give a penny take a penny container very one that I have donated to, and the manager told me that I can't take the pennies out of there to pay for gas that those pennies are only used for when you need one penny, that's a good way to chase away her customers what do you think?!

Acdc

Ha ha can relate!

Dan is interviewing Weird Al

, the instant I turned on the TV the first sentence that came out of this guy's mouth was that it drives him crazy when people don't write or speak properly.

Im smiling huge.

Quote of the day

"I was making 5 million a year, but coming back to an empty home" Jack aay

a joyful documentary

this was the most joyful documentary I've seen in a long time,

And by the way all of the low and motels here in Flagstaff are indeed run by thePatel families!

violence in Chicago

These are awesome solutions being presented on pbs news hour.

Mask

Cure violence

And more

Ousted

Back in 2001 I was in the grocery store and it turned out that my biological father was in front of me in the checkout line.

Out of respect to his wishes, I held back a few steps; I created some distance because I knew that I would not be welcome to greet him/sadly, I felt the need to make sure he didnt see me, since he doesn't want contact.

(I was also homeless at the time; June 2001)

Synchronicity

Just last week I discovered that one of my favorite musicians George Michael is only one day younger than I am. I'll be very curious to find out what his cause of death at this point I don't think they have much of an idea

Laura's Album

I found this absolutely amazing book in the bookstore last week just kind of jumped off the shelf at me only one week after I was looking at a Laura Ingalls Wilder video on YouTube.

This is a compilation of Photographs & Memories and all the memorabilia of her whole life, it is absolutely incredible beauty an amazing back at the past

Commonalities with celebrities

I'm not an opera singer but I learned that my crew is an opera singer and he in my opinion has the most amazing voice to listen to

He's one year older than me and attended Catonsville community college and Towson university at the same time that I was there.

You might also be surprised to find what you have in common  with some celebrities

. For example Amy Schumer attended Towson University as well. She also like me has one Jewish parent and one non Jewish parent.

Rip

R.I.p. Benjamin Wilson

Freaky adoptee memories

Here is just one memory that I think of rather often. At some point in 2006 or 2007 I saw the balloons with the directions to my uncle's house (in Baltimore) so that people can "sit Shiva" in his memory. ( an open house that allows people to come and go everyday for about a week and it's basically a party celebrating the life of the deceased in the Jewish religion)

Can you imagine what it would be like to see the invitation to a p"party" of your immediately immediate family member and you can't go (because u aren't welcome) you never even met the the uncle who died? I never met any of the family on my father's side.

My father (who I only met thrice) he thinks he can forbid me from introducing myself to my family

There aren't many people that you could discuss that kind of memory with because there aren't many people that could relate to something that freaky

Politics

Cool sticker I thought.

World Wide Web goes public

Placard at wildflower bread celebrate things or people that got their start in 1996

Journal display

Collector of beautiful things

I thought this journal display at the local bookstore with quite gorgeous and I wanted to share with you

Bah humbug

" even when you have been good you still get screwed"

KEITH URBAN

"Wealth isn't just about money, its about quality of life!"

Lockup tampa

Does anybody else believe that Dee Dee Moore innocent? I believe she's guilty because who on Earth would have planted a dead body in her backyard. When you look at the fact that she used to make a half a million dollars a year I can't imagine her wanting to rob a man who just won the lottery for a few million dollars!

But the main reason why I don't believe her is because he wondered would have planted Abraham's body in her backyard?!

Music greats

Keep up the great work axsTV

99 percent bedridden

The issues with the back has worsened substantially in the last 10 years and I'd say for the last 10 215 years I can't stand for more than 15 minutes I can't walk very far either due to largely to excruciating back pain. I am so weak I can barely put a fork to my mouth. The migraines are almost daily and the stomach issues have been also very very severe for more than 10 years.

I think it's fair to say that I gave up years ago and do not want to spend my life running from Doctor to doctor or specialist to specialist. I'll never ever have a normal life on $8,000 a year and I don't see myself being able to hold down a job

quote of the night

(Movie Fred Claus)

"What do you want for Christmas?"

Response "A family"

democrat?

Please join


"Our revolution.com

Quote of the night

"MONEY, I HATE, LOATHE AND DESPISE MONEY!"

Cnn Obama legacy

Man, I love this family.

Obama makes it clear that all the progress weve made in 8 years WILL be undone by Trump.

Damn depressing.

Quote of the night

(C.i.a. Marylander with work assignment in Moscow)

"What I miss most about America are Maryland crabcakes and my Annapolis cadet boyfriend!"

you took the words right out of my mouth

Leah said something that is extremely similar to what I've been wanting to put on my blog for the entire 10 years I had it online.

"Imagine, your penniless, homeless, no family;now START YOUR LIFE"

Takes alot to shock me

Arizona rates on suicide;we are 38percent higher then the rest of the country.

We are definitely one of the poorest states and nearly everyone I meet has a deplorable quality of life living in a tent/ extremely low wage jobs temp jobs doing construction, and or disabled are just a fraction of the causes Im sure.

Quote of the day

"We lived together, laughing together, cried together and now we're going to die together."

Matthew McGough stranded in the outback.